Depressed Much.

November :)

I don't even feel like smiling here; summer is back and so are the most despicable insects ever. November also means a LOT of work : revision and revision again. 
And as far as I am concerned, right now, whether it is November or February, I don't care much. I feel like my Life has come to a full-stop: nothing much is going on there and I don't feel like making anything happen there either. I feel like I am just living for the sake of it. 
My blog manager told me I should start a new Life which is quite impossible,
I feel like everything I have been going through for the past months will follow me till my last breath,
Nothing will ever get better,
Some things can never ever get better even if I try because, well, you can't call back the dead.
So, yeah, there is a lot of things going on in my mind right now,
I am probably depressed or even suffering from some kind of disorders for that matter,
But I can't do much about it,
Because \I don't want to open up to anybody, not even the closest of them people,
Actually, I feel like there is no one close anymore,
I have shut down everyone who once, used to be close to me.
It's like I don't want things to ever get better.

Yes, this is such a negative post.
Bad thing for a Psychologist-in-the-making.

It is probably time I key off,
Too many depressing stuff in this post.
Can't get any proper writing either,
Hopeless I am becoming.

xoxo
ZOu