All that you can't leave behind!

It's amazing how life can take you places,
And you would still wish you were back home/ back where it all started,

Sometimes, all we want is go away,
Far from everything that hurt us,
Far from everything because we can not cope anymore,
And then,
When we finally get that chance,
When we are finally miles away,
When we have left so much behind,
We wish we never had,
We wish we were still there,
Where the heart lies,
Where all our pain is,
Where we've left our life,

We prayed so much to get over it,
We prayed so much for our dreams to come true,
We prayed so much to be in a place where it won't hurt ever again,
And when all our prayers are finally fulfilled,
We wish we never asked for it,

Is it just the human nature then?
To crave for pain and tears?
Probably,
Or maybe it's just a lot of drama,
We just miss being in pain,
And we want to go back to those places,
The places where we've been hurt and dumped,
The places where we've lost everything,
The places where our hearts still lie!

Being far from everything,
Sometimes just remind you how much you loved being there,
How badly you loved those moments,
How badly you want to go back and live it all again!

Today is just one of those days,
Missing home,
Missing school,
Missing people,

Missing moments that made me who I am,
Moments that marked me so badly, I am going to carry them with me forever,
And I probably wish I could go back in time,
Just to be young and foolish again!
And to be loved (:

Happy Friday World!

PinkNose x

Confuseddotcom!

So, after this long convo with Damry,
Followed by this long convo with myself,
I am completely convinced that this is just a rebound.
YES! I can rebound, after 4 years.
I am AH-mazing!

NO!
This is just like a stupid teenage crush. The teenager inside of me is taking over!

Moving on!
Let's write something legit, shall we?

Life is a happy song! Let's all dance and stop being worried about stupid stupid stupid things!
Let's all be T.H [[♡]] 
Haters gonna hate, potatoes gonna potate. 
Slapsgiving is around the corner. You know what to do? :)

Also, SHUT UP Life!
Stop making me fall in love with everyone,
I can't do that?
I can't become that crazy person who just fall in love every time,
I AM NOT THAT PERSON.
I HATE DK.

Okay, this post is lame. Lame. Lame.
Tom tom tom tom tomly tom! LALALALALA!

Good Night,
I need to think,
About this whole damn situation,
Stop confusing me world! >.<

END.

HappyMauritiusDay!

"When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are to become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No ... don't blush. I am telling you some truths. For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away. Doesn't sound very exciting, does it? But it is!"

-LdB


This quote just had to be here.
It's so beautiful and heartbreaking. 

Getting back to JKT's midnight joint :)

Be happy!
Because life is short,
And you want to enjoy every single second of it laughing and smiling,
Because you don't want to die with a heartbreak,
You want to die, satisfied,
Satisfied with life and love,

Happy Independence Day by the way!

Happy Birthday Atif!

And I am bored. I can't write.
I need to sleep. And critically analyse. And essay. And call. And stalk. And blah.
Bye!

Happy Tuestuestuesday!

Happy Tuesday!

Suck it up,

The world is beautiful,

It's sunny and hot!

So there is no reason to not be happy!

Stop being angry at the world,

That's way too lame,

Spread the joy,

And if you can't do better,

Become JKT,

Spread the crap.
Spread it so hard it makes you laugh your ass out!

Listen to happy songs and smile,

Because you know everything is awesome,

And if everything is not,

Just forget about it,

Forget about all your worries,

And all your essays and tests [[First World Problem. Believe Me.]],

And just have faith in the Universe,

Ultimately,

Everything will fall into place,

At the end of the day,
It will all make sense,

And you will be happy you had to go through pretty crappy days!

I read this quote somewhere which went like this: "The time you enjoy wasting, is not wasted time"?
Something along this line,

And it immediately made me feel a little less guilty about all the time I lose,

If you are happy, what the hell?
All your life you are going to work for others,

Why not be happy for yourself, now, when you can!

Alright, go back to "smiling,"

Because "heyyyy!"

xoxo
ZOubanana! :)

Eleven Years of ShareeZOu ♡

We've been lucky in love friendship.
We found each other, again, when the rest of our world stopped making sense,
We learnt to appreciate the power of our relationship, again and better, when we lost in every other battles,
We found each other, when Life was giving up on us,
And we made Life worthwhile by being there for each other,
And by living each other's dreams,

I love you,
The real thing,
I love you so much, 
You made me realise that friendship is not something that happens overnight,
Friendship is like a plant,
You have to take care of it, water it, talk to it, and value it,
You have to protect it,
Friendships that you are lucky to have, are those that have lasted years,
Those that took years to consolidate,
It went through storms, broken promises, secrets not kept, but also, love.
A love so intense, nothing else can be compared to it,
Friendships like these need to be handled with care,
Eleven years of you,
Eleven years of trying to understand you and trying to figure you out,
And I don't even need that now,
Neither do you [[Miaow- your trademark]],
Eleven years of us and deep conversations about going to the washroom happens!
Yeah,
Eleven years of us and we both end up dreaming about me and DK,
Eleven years of us and viber wants to commit suicide, and Mark is still not getting those socks!
Eleven years of us and I don't think I could ask for better,

You are my happy ending!
You are always there when I need to dramatise about boys and fictional boyfriends,
You are there when I wake up and you are still there when I go to bed,

You are not the usual kind of friendship,
You are the special one,
The one who'll slap you [[twice]] in your face and ask you to get your shits together [[with love]]!
The one who will supervise your private conversations with guys and get shit done when you are on panic mode! 
The one who will fight for you, against all odds and rationality!

You are the crazy kind of friendship,
The one who will ask you if you know any special prayers for repenting [[GETALIFE]],
The one who will constantly remind you what a mistake all your exes were. [[SERIOUSLY, I can't even acknowledge one of these guys. What was that? BLINDNESS?]]
The one who will miaow you on every line because they know you by heart!

You are the true kind of friendship,
The family-type!
And I know we are going to last forever,
Even if nothing does,
We are going to,
Because we are the real deal! ♡

And I love us!

srk ♡

A Page From My Diary

"And then, along the way, people stopped caring much. No messages, no calls, no friends. When I left all behind, everyone left me behind too. I was like a nobody; the years of fun, friendship and craziness were all gone. I did not matter anymore; my fears, my worries, my pains were being ignored and my laughter faded a little every day.  I stopped believing in myself, i stopped writing, i stopped dreaming and i stopped hoping. I lived for the sake of it. Nothing else mattered anymore. I was a forgotten page to the book of Life and i gave up all hopes of being read ever, again.  My whole life was just a boring routine now, with no one to laugh, cry or share my breath.  I had become that lonely person whom people did not worry much about because at the end of the day they knew she would survive.  And no one cared how, they just knew she would. Everyday the lights of hope would burn out in a corner of my life and i did not bother to turn it on again. As the months went by, I became this dark person. with no words, no smile, no laughter, no craziness. I had probably lost everything, but I never cried, I forgot to cry perhaps, or was I scared to approve of my loneliness? All i was looking forward to now, was going to college and leaving behind this world, these people, those angry friends.  Maybe i was planning a new beginning or maybe I just wanted to get away from here.

all in all, i had lost myself and saw no hopes of ever finding the true me again. that part of me was probably dead, and the dead never come back."

Something I found in one of my folders.

AAH! I love me, I can come up with awesome shits!

Pink Nose

I hate you (like I love you)

10 things I hate about you,

I absolutely and completely hate everything about you.
You are annoying as hell.
I hate that I can't talk to you, because you make me nervous.
I hate that you are perfect.
Perfect for me, at least,
I hate that you like everything that I like,
I hate seeing you, it makes me go cray cray,
I hate everything you do,
I hate your stupid stupid opinions about everything,
Because SHUT UP! You can not be that guy, the one I have been dreaming about for so long,
Just stop meeting everything on my stupid checklist,
Stop ruining my life,
And -.- I can't even complete this stupid post :(
I hate you.
My hate for you is as strong as Blair's hate for Chuck.
My hate for you has no boundary.
STOP.
I hate you a little more than I hate Tom Hiddleston. And that's a very very very big deal.
I hate that I have this huge crush on you and I am constantly on panic mode when you message me.
I hate you and everything you say,
I hate that you can actually do things I want,
I hate that you know everything about what I love,

And you know what?
GO TO HELL!
Because you are driving me crazy. Completely crazy.
And that's horrible. 
I hate you (like I love you) : "Someone, call a doctor, got a case of a love bipolar!"

You are the Drama King to my Drama Queen-ness!

x