2014. Everything's gonna be awesome.

Happy 2014 World!
Can't believe I haven't been writing for over a year.
Time flies and somewhere along, I forgot how to write.
I just can't come up with awesome posts anymore.

2014 in London. THE dream. It's happening and somehow, everything's missing.
All the plans, all the checklists.
Everything is so lifeless.

Maybe I'm over-reacting.
*Everything is awesome* The Awesome Lego Song. Stuck in my head.
So many essays to write. So many tests to study for.
It's a busy busy busy year.

Okay, what am I even writing? I'm a failure. -.-

Last night I told myself : I'm giving up. Giving up on all the plans I made, because I feel like it's not working.
Today: My bff said "I'm giving up!"
Why?
Why are we giving up on things that we've both dreamt about?
Why should we give up on things we still believe in?
Why do we HAVE to give up?
When is it going to be our go?
When is it going to be the day when we wake up and we realise everything is working perfectly, nothing can go wrong now?
So many times, we've give up on things we held close to our hearts,
Every time it's the same song,
And maybe this is the way it's meant to be.
Maybe we just need to give up on everything so we get better things?
Not so sure anymore..

Happy 2014 people!
Right now: So in Love with this blue-eyed guy. He is not even real dude. I need to get a life.

xoxo
ZOu <3 p="">

London : The Cold City :P

It's been a while.
Almost one year.

And things have changed around.
Life got busier,
Dreams came true,
Some not so much,
And it's getting colder ♡
Believe it or not,
I am actually missing Mauritius' sun.
And I am missing summer.
For a person who's always been in love with Winter, missing Summer is like a big deal :/
Well, I just want it to snow and i'll be done.
London is like some cold stone hearted place.
If London was a person, it would suck. Seriously.

The only wonderful thing about London would be Kingston. Kingston is probably one of the most amazing place in the world,
If my mum [basically my family] lived here, I'd settle in Kingston.
The place is magical.
Other than Kingston,
Well SHOPPING! AARG :D I am never buying clothes in Mauritius or shoes or handbags or even under-wears for that matter.
Man, I don't think I'll have enough money to buy a ticket home by the time I have to go,
Shopping here is Nirvana.
It's more than Nirvana. It's unexplainable. If that's even a word. :) But yeah,
At this point, I'm just missing home, my room, and my people. And that's it.

xoxo
ZOu

Happy Holidays :)

Relationships, Life, Friends?

What am I going to write about, I thought.

I failed at almost each and every of these things over the past year.

And then I stopped and thought,

Hey, it's totally normal to fail at maintaining THE perfect relationship with someone you love,

It is completely normal to fail at each and every little thing life is made up of,

After all aren't we just humans?

Of course, being human would not excuse all the wrong we did,

And then again, isn't it by making the wrong choices that we end up learning our lessons?

The wrong choices are not always going to lead us to disastrous tomorrows,

Some of the wrong choices and moves are in fact, important for us to learn that not everything is a fairy tale, 

The wrong choices teach us how to achieve our goals by treading along the not-so-smooth paths,

The wrong choices make us question each and every of our dreams and goals,

The wrong choices are meant to re define who we are.

It is okay to be wrong,

It is okay to not be perfect,

It is okay to not always be the best at maintaining relationships,

It is okay to fail,

Only then, the fruit of success/happiness is going to taste best :)

ZOu.

Happy 2013 x

Don't you feel angry at life sometimes? That everything is turning more and more into a dark hollow? Where is the light they said would come after the darkness? Where is the morning they said would come after the night? Where is the sun after the rain?
I have been waiting for way too long for these shits to happen :)
I think I might just take a fucking lamp torch and turn it on. I can't take the darkness spreading around anymore, and I don't want to feel helpless because I can't see a shit in the dark :) I want to get the hell out of this tunnel, NOW. 
Where there is a will, there is a way, well, show me the way or i'll just push everyone around and make my own way -.-
Exactly- do feel angry at life from times to times, it help you see better and it gives you the will to do better, to work harder for happiness and to achieve what you want and cannot get.  Nothing is impossible, so get angry, and make things move. Don't sit around and wait for it to happen.  You have the power to change your path, you have the power to change your world- do it :)
And if nothing works, then do get angry :) Because this anger will make your craziest dreams come true and it will turn you into a new person. 
Don't wait around for the sun to rise, you have the power to shine within yourself :)
Don't walk endlessly along the tunnel, take a turn, create a new path, reach for your destiny :)
Don't wait till a new dawn to become who you want to be, change yourself NOW! :)
And always remember to turn on the lights :) Even in the darkest situations =] [[Dumbledore said so!]]

Happy Twenty Thirteen-Reach Out For Your Dreams And Make It Your Year xoxo

HO HO HO! :D

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Happy December World,
And here comes another end,
This year is gone-almost, 
And as usual there are many things we could not do, many things we wish we had not do, and many things we hoped for that never came around,
As saying goes, the sun shall rise again,
Hopefully 2013 will bring back what you lost this year, it will give you what you could not get this year and it will bring many more =)
My usual end-of-year posts look like the above :
Well, this year, I am not really inspired to wish people great things for the New Year or Christmas,
But still, I just watched the latest Parenthood Ep and it made me want Christmas-BADLY >.<

Christmas looks so magic on tv,
I wish I could have this kind of a christmas (:
Anyways,
Christmas is the time of the year where you get to believe in magic,
It is the time where you can believe in your dreams again,
If this year has been hard on you,
Then, for Christmas believe in a better day,
Believe in a better life,
Because every new day, the Sun will rise,
And someday, will be YOURS :)
Don't forget to smile on Christmas,
To believe in the impossible,
Because Christmas is that one day of the year you get to believe in this fat cheeky guy who wears red clothes and has a tad of white beard :)
Believe in miracles and 
above all,
Believe in yourself :)

xoxo
ZOu,
P.S. I know this is a messy post, but i am working on it.

BoohDecember :D

HAPPY DECEMBER PEOPLE! :)

Only 17 posts this year? :O Horrible horrible year it's been i guess,
But December is just another thing,
Just the sight of it made everything better,
I sound like i am in love with December -.-

It's a sunny sunny sunny December people,
Make the most of it and be happy blah blah blah,BS.

Klaroline [Klaus+Caroline] : Awes!

<3 b="b">
Bon aler bye, mne vin extra kaka at writing posts. 

Depressed Much.

November :)

I don't even feel like smiling here; summer is back and so are the most despicable insects ever. November also means a LOT of work : revision and revision again. 
And as far as I am concerned, right now, whether it is November or February, I don't care much. I feel like my Life has come to a full-stop: nothing much is going on there and I don't feel like making anything happen there either. I feel like I am just living for the sake of it. 
My blog manager told me I should start a new Life which is quite impossible,
I feel like everything I have been going through for the past months will follow me till my last breath,
Nothing will ever get better,
Some things can never ever get better even if I try because, well, you can't call back the dead.
So, yeah, there is a lot of things going on in my mind right now,
I am probably depressed or even suffering from some kind of disorders for that matter,
But I can't do much about it,
Because \I don't want to open up to anybody, not even the closest of them people,
Actually, I feel like there is no one close anymore,
I have shut down everyone who once, used to be close to me.
It's like I don't want things to ever get better.

Yes, this is such a negative post.
Bad thing for a Psychologist-in-the-making.

It is probably time I key off,
Too many depressing stuff in this post.
Can't get any proper writing either,
Hopeless I am becoming.

xoxo
ZOu