SMILEEEEEEE =D

Did you smile today?

DO IT =D

Life is beautiful.

Did you thank God today?
DO IT =D

God loves you.

Did you fall in love today?

DO IT =D

Love is wonderful.

Did you dream today?

DO IT =D

Dreams do come true.

Did you forgive today?

DO IT =D

Forgiveness is Love.

Did you remember the good old days today?

DO IT =D

Memories are gifts.

Did you laugh today?

DO IT =D

Everything happens for a reason.

And, the past is gone.

Live today.

Laugh today.

Make today beautiful.

For it won't come again.

♥

Psychology : A New Love Story ^^

~August does not want to end.~

No matter how hard the rain is falling this August,

No matter how cold it is this August,

No matter how windy the weather is this August,

I think, maybe, I am loving THIS August.

Yes!

Thanks to Psychology?

Thanks to UoM?

Thanks to new friends?

Thanks to old friends?

NO! I will take the credits for these wow moments I am living. =D

Ani always tell me, "Help yourself, God will help you."

I do not know if God is really helping me, 

But i surely know that i am helping myself by SMILING. =D

I am smiling, because Life is giving me new chances.

I am smiling, because Life is showing me new horizons.

I am smiling, because I believe, Life will give me what i deserve, at the end of the day. ^^

Yes, it still happens that some nights before i fall asleep, i miss you.

Yes, it still happens that some nights before closing my eyes, i shed some tears.

Yes, it still happens that some nights while remembering some things, i wished all was like before.

But then, every new morning, i remember all the bad things you said, and i realise how cheap you are.

Yeah, every morning, when the sun rise again, i realise that I deserve better.

Yeah, every morning, when the world start living again, I smile because I know, Life will treat me better.

Surely, I won't love again.

Surely, I won't trust like before.

Surely, I won't give everything this time.

But, yes, I am having the time of my life.

Maybe it will be short-lived again. Or, maybe not.

Oh! Do i care?

All I know is that my life is over-crowded : With A-M-A-Z-I-N-G people ♥

Heer said (wait-i need to re-read the text-BRB)(BACK!) : "[...]si kikn nvi kit tw alé,les zt alé(m ti p nvi dir pis r zt)..nk pren la p1 geT, t pu truv nta dimun otour tw, ki vremem pu TW[...]"

Heer is an awesome guy-He is just WOW! And like he said, who cares about those who are no more there? Who cares about those who pretend to be there? Who cares about those who are double-faced people? As long as I have those true and real friends, I know nothing can go wrong.

Certes, sometimes I will cry, sometimes I will lose, sometimes I will be wrong, sometimes I will fail.

But, as long as these people are there, I will smile through my tears, find victory in moments of defeat, learn again and i will surely RISE from my own ashes.

Again, if you choose to stay : I never promise not to hurt you, but i'll love deeply.

And, if you want to go : then GO! =D

There is a reason you could not stay : YOU did not deserve ME. ^^

To the wonderful people who stayed-through the ups and MOSTLY the downs : I Love You (You know i do^^) Anii, Heer, Han, Sharee, BOule, Rocco, Desh, Cherry, Nush(2) ♥

To the amazing new people i met : Thank You for loving me & I promise this is going to be so WOW (*evil grin*) Safeeya, Rhameeja, PTKumar, Mayuri(Pee-Loon♥), BOuncer & Send =D

P.S. The Title is not related in ANY single way to what i wrote. I know. Get over it. 

P.P.S. A P.S should be put after the "Bye" whatever thing. I know. FU =D

Ok, Baaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiyyyyyyyyy ♥

WAIT :O I forgot : To my people : Jaane Kyun, Dil Jaanta hai-TU HAI to i'll be ALRIGHT ^^ ♥

AND, to my NEW people : Zindagi ^^ Milke bitaenge ♥ Haale Dil gaa ke sunaenge =D ♫

Remember : "Believe that dreams come true. Because they DO" x

..Femme.. 

..x..

My soul died one year ago..x

One year later..
The same date..
The same Saturday..
The same weather..
The same people..
The same world..


Some things did change, though.
Me.
You.
Us.
A whole relationship.


Sometimes when i look back on 15.08.09, i smile.
Some other times, no matter how hard i try, i cannot but cry.
Today, i am neither smiling nor crying.
Every time i happen to remember it is today, i close my eyes and i remember them.


No, i don't remember you.
No, i don't remember us.
No, i don't remember what you said.
No, i don't remember last year.


I simply remember the people who told me "Why can't you see how much WE love you?"
I simply remember the ones who wiped the tears you gave me.
I simply remember those people without whom i would be alone today.
I simply remember the friends who told me i should be thankful God brought them into my life.


And i smile..


But, then, today, each and every seconds reminded me of last year.
Yes, i have the right to remember.
But rest assured, this time i won't give you the satisfaction of crying for you.
Yes, my heart will prick at the thought that last year you promised you'd be there every times i'd open my eyes.
But rest assured, i won't believe you this time.
Yes, maybe i will miss the moments i spent with you.
But rest assured, i won't love you any more.

It's August 2010.
The weather is forever cold.
The leaves dry.
The rain is falling against the windows and we can hear the annoying sound as it does.


Maybe next year, looking back on today, i'll smile..
Or maybe i'll still remember..
But whatever happens,
You no more can be part of my life.
You no more can be part of my present.
They say there is a reason the people from your past did not make it to your present, I could not found the reason for your absence in my Today but one thing i am sure about, is that you have no place in my Life anymore.


Someday if i happen to forgive you..
Someday if i happen to forget..
Someday if i happen to take back the love..


I Shall bring you back in my Life.


Someday..


"I gave you my heart..That's all I'll give you. And if that's not enough for you, then I'm not enough for you." -OTH-


Like always.. My heart will still belong to you..
I loved you way too much. 
I lived way too much with you.
And you made me suffer way too much..


Yours in the Ranks of Death,
Fa x


P.S. Somebody told us, "When two people are standing at a cross-road, they are looking for a direction/a way to go.." (I though it was quite gross to write it in Creole here..) - Maybe we just happened to choose different directions. And maybe if someday our paths cross again, we could be one again.

Truly Madly Deeply (:

UoM ---> WTH?

Okay, for once, i am not going to say bad things about it.

In fact, i feel i am liking UoM.

Not UoM---> The place & atmosphere.

But UoM---> The people, the lectures (OH YEAH! :O Maybe because it's only the first week :s), the class mates (the sexy guy :O), the seniors (The sexy guyS :P), the old friends, the new friends, the breaks, the gym (Only because my Pit & Heer happen to love this place), the library (OMG! :O Why do i like it? No idea.), one single place (Ha, not even one week and we found ourselves OUR own place [apart from the ugly bins, the place is always sunny and not too loaded with students]!), the Pit (TRAITRE!!!), the Heer (My boyfriend and to-be-brother for some festivals & gifts' purposes which is none of your business :P), the Anii ( My star), the BOwl (who'll kill me if i don't meet her tomorow), the Guy under water (LOL! Okay this is some senior guy who's in Marine Science & he's a real pain :O & all of his pictures are taken from under water :/), the cousins (Dude i never knew i'd love having my cousins studying with me :P), the Safeeya (who's actually turning into ME :O I am so contagious i know :)) & the others.

God :O Am i saying i ACTUALLY love UoM?

Maybe.

Well, i am not here to blog about UoM.

But about Psychology.

Did you know that Psychology was the study of something you CANNOT see?

We all know. Yeah, right.

I love Psychology.

It's teaching me why i am a stubborn & hysterical thing.

I like it.

It might also teach me some things i am trying to learn since forever.

Well, whatever.

Did you know i am beautiful? 

One, two,three--->WAIT : Nine persons told me last night :O

*yay*

And did you know that i am NOT bad? Heer told me last night :)

Did you know we should piss off people who are not worth us? Heer told me last night :)

Did you know some people will always hurt no matter how much we love em? Heer told me last night :)

Did you know Heer was my brother? I decided so last night :)

Did you know Heer will go soon? :'( 

Did you know I smile everyday because i see Ani-Heer & Pit? :)

Ani-Heer-Pit-Bowl : The reason i am happy every day.

Even if Pit is a real pain with his retarded mobile :)

Even if Heer is always laughing sarcastically for no reasons :)

Even if BOwl always complain about me :)

Even if Ani is a drunkard :)

These people so love me.  No matter what i do. No matter how many times i stop talking to them. No matter how rude i am. No matter how imperfect i am. They love me. And i don't know how i'd live if they were not there. I don't know what would happen every night when i start crying if they were not there to listen to my every sob. I wonder how i'd be able to put that smile again on my face every morning and walk out there like my life was perfect, if they were not behind to make sure i am smiling and living.

How many times do i write to say thanks?

How many times do i write to say sorry?

I am such an ungrateful bitch :(

Thursday morning, i'll wake up and walk directly to (BLABLA) and (BLABLA) : SURPRISE! 

(In case you ass holes read my blog :P Lundi zot pu kner mkz ♥)

Oh people, thanks for making me live wonderful days ♥

And thanks for being there all the time, even if it's at two in the morning.♥

And Heer don't leave me :( 

Sometimes the people who love you pours so much love on you, you don't even have time thinking about the rest.

TY God, for giving me angels in my life.

Fa♥

Craziness!

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I suddenly feel VERY happy.

YAY!

Why?

I don't know.

Nothing.

Just like that.

[[He's blind! YAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY!]]

Faiz is sexy.

I like Faiz.

Every new day, i'll get myself a new guy.

Yay!

I am a Bitch.

So what?

Yay!

Rocco calls me "Pitza"! 

It means Bitch in Roccon ( Rocco's Language! HAHA! ).

I am very ugly.

YAY!

SEX :O

No, i don't want. :)

Okay, i am typing crap things.

I am smiling ---> :)

"Pens mw, you'll smile lerla" <--- Pa kner kisnla in dir sa! LOL! Mne rapel sa dialogue la n kou :O

Mwe pens mo mm mp ggn riyer! HAHA!

Mwe type en creole!

HAHA!

Bne dimun ki pa compren p lire kk la HAHA!

LOOOOOOOOOOL!

Okay m folle p pren :)

DONNE MW FAIZ :) SVP :) MERCI!

Vandana Pem. Kisanla sa? Ene femme folle ki fer mw happy :)

Rocco Gagan pT. Kisanla sa? Ene boug fou ki fer mw riyer :)

This post is not a post.

I am crazy.

You love me.

Lepep loves me.

If you don't, then you're stupid.

Okay-CUT!

LOOOOOOOOOOL! i am having so much fun on msn & FB right now.

I'll be back to blogging some other days.

x

One Last Love..

Tonight i might miss you again.

Tonight my heart might forgive you once more.

Tonight i might love you a last time.

A last time.

Too much pain was inflicted on this love.

Too much tears flowed from those eyes.

Too much wounds were given to this soul.

Once broken, a relationship can never be the same again.

Once broken, a heart can never love the way it used to, again.

Once betrayed, a soul can never believe in anything again.

A broken relationship should be left to its sort. By trying to mend things, more pain was inflicted.

Love does turn into Hate.

No matter how hard it is to believe, the people who once loved you, can hate you like hell.

This world is too complicated.

I lost myself.

I am afraid i might forget who i am.

I am afraid someday i'll wake up and i'll forget to smile.

I am afraid i'll end up hurting all the hearts which loved me.

I am afraid i'll never find my faith again.

When i hurt someone close to my heart, it hurts me.

What happens if somebody kills a soul? How can that person keep on laughing when he killed a smile?

How can that person live when he  made someone lose faith in Life?

How can that person be happy when he killed love in someone else?

Do some people have no conscience? 

Tonight i might believe in every word you said, again.

Tonight i might forget all the ugly things you said, again.

Tonight i might love you a last time.

A last time.

Too many times, i forgave you.

Too many times, i changed who i was for you.

Too many times, i believed in you.

One day you'll wake up and you'll feel like your world just fell apart.

And you'll know what i feel like every morning.

One day you'll close your eyes and wished everything was back to normal.

And you'll know what i feel like every time i miss you.

One day you'll go to bed with a bitter ache.

And you'll know what i feel like every night.

♫ Annie you were made for the big times..

James Blunt is awesome.

Annie, why don't you bathe in the limelight? Cause i thought you said you'd be a celebrity, several years ago.♪

This song reminds me of the last week we spent at school.

I miss our crazy days♥

HAHA! It reminds me of the crazy video we did :)

"Ki to p fer?"

"Vandalisme -.-" Laiss mw :@" HAHA! I need to watch it again♥

Tonight i'll love you more than ever.

It does not matter what the world thinks.

It does not matter you think.

Tonight is special :)

Tomorrow morning i'll be back to having a huge crush on Faiz again. 

Just for tonight, i'll forget every painful memories.

Just for tonight, i'll remember the laughs & smiles  and i might smile.

Just for tonight, i'll love you.

A last time.

ZOu .x.

~August Thoughts~

"I believe we write our own stories. And each time we think we know the end - we don't. Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance, and in peace that comes from knowing that you just can't know it all. You know, life's funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong." -The Little Black Book-

Love this quote.
Love this movie.
Tonight it's raining. The usual rain.
We are in August.
I happen to hate this month.
But, tonight, i still love every single thing in Life.
Maybe because i met wonderful people today-AGAIN.
Maybe because i found more reasons to smile than to cry.
Maybe because i happen to be positive about Life.


I am about to live something new and maybe exciting.
Yeah, for the first time in weeks i am feeling really excited about the coming BIG event.
University.
Studying-Further.
Living Life-AGAIN.


When i have nothing to do (The past nine or so months), i happen to complain & whine a lot. I also happen to become depressed.
I feel the constant need of doing something out of my life, i NEED to keep LEARNING and growing. 
And, yes, i am excited about learning AGAIN.
I would not mind spending my whole life studying, as long as i know i am learning something.
Some people said, we keep learning all our lives. I agree. Those who complain about these things are fucktard money-minded craps. We do need money (How do i SHOP otherwise -.-) but working is nothing compared to learning and growing(mentally).
OMG! I am talking sense.
I think.
I love me. You do too. :)


Tonight it's raining.
The wind's blowing hard.
It's cold.
I don't give a damn anymore.
One single day in this new world, and all i want is live.
Live and Breathe.


Nelson Mandela once said, "Keep Hope Alive!" And the man is no idiot.
Where there is life, there is still hope.
(L'espoir fait vivre les imbeciles--->Yeah Right, FU)
As long as you believe in something and you work for that thing to happen, then nothing can come in between.
I kept my hope alive, i never gave up and i knew somehow, someday i would achieve what i wanted the most.(You don't need to know what it is :])
And still, i know there is much more to come.
No matter how broken you are, no matter how badly life treats you, no matter how weak you feel you are, just keep your hopes alive and BELIEVE in yourselves, believe in something more powerful, believe in your dreams, believe in God.
God does exist. Yes. I happen to doubt of his existence. When i am at my worst mostly.
And then, when wonderful things happen in my life, when a ray of light appears out of the darkness, when a little bit of happiness is drawn in my life, i realise God does exist, and there is nothing more powerful than Him.


Somebody once told me "Why don't you love God? He gave you me." and i once again realised, how true this statement was and how true God was. 


I am not a perfect person.
I made mistakes.
I will, again.
But i know, i am no bad person.
I might hurt, but i love deeply.


I hate August. Why?
I lost someone close to my heart last August.
And i lost something more valuable-my smile.
I never got them back. And, i know i won't ever.
But i still fake the smile. And i hope someday, it turns out being a genuine smile.♥

August=Winter.
I love Winter. I used to love Winter.
One single thing sometimes change a whole lots of things.
Maybe for better. :)


Today, though, i fell in love with Winter again
I fell in love with the cold.
I fell in love with the winds.
I fell in love. 


(It's just a CRUSH *_* haha! FU peeps :P I'll definitely get him ^^)


I fell in love with the beautiful thing i happen to be.

"Our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we touch.." ~Remember Me~

Sometimes i wonder if i ever marked anyone, any lives.
Maybe no.
But who cares.
You marked mine. You made a difference. And forever i will remember not to love that much and not to trust blindly.


I am very mean sometimes. 
But it is nothing compared to how some people treat me.[[Stating a fact^^]]


It's August.
I hate August.
The rain is falling no more.
Time to dream some more.
Good Night People.


xoxo
Farah.