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I freaking love London,

It's probably because I am not from here and I come from a place that is so different. People from here think I am crazy because I am so in love with this city. Maybe I am,

All my life I've dreamt of being here, and actually being here made me love the place even more. I love everything about London, the ugly weather, the cold, the crowd, the rush, the trains, the busy places, the shopping [heaven really], the river, the Victorian buildings, the landmarks, the people,

Everything that London has to offer is heaven for me, and all I want to do is spend my life here. There is no where else in the world I would rather be. London is kind of "Home" now, because this where my heart lies,

Also, [this is out of context] but WTF GERRARD. And Suarez needs to die-he's fugly.

I am too stressed to keep writing-football is just stressing!
Happy World Cup!

Idontf*ckingcare-ILoveEnglandandRooney! #ComeonEngland!

Banana xo

Get Sad Night!

It's get sad night.
Because this is actually a thing, YES!

Sad playlists, sad philosophical thoughts, sad faces, well, just everything that makes you sad, because as it's been put so perfectly, "it's good to be sad every now and then!"

It's almost like a virtual slumber party, except it's not a slumber party, it's just two people skype-ing as usual and being sad just because "tragedy is the new cool!"
Also, we should probably get our get psyched mix, because being sad is just tiring!
What's the purpose of pondering on things that make you sad when there is not exactly a lot you can do to change it [in our cases], when you feel the need to have a get sad night, just remember being sad takes too much energy, invest it in something better, i don't know like, planning the cray cray tour or all the cray cray stuff that will happen during that tour, because what happens in Europe, stays in Europe :3

Be happy, be so happy that everything else does not matter,
Be happy because sometimes that's all that really make sense,
Be happy because no one deserves to have their heart broken, except for some bitches here and there :3

I read this somewhere, it goes a bit like this: When you are sad about your life, remember there is someone who's thankful for your existence.
Shit like that!

xoxo
Banana!

Denial Dissertation

Dear all,

The solution to writing a good research paper is never found in binge-watching-himym! Never! But, that's a good start, you can always do your best when the deadline is near. Don't worry, every one procrastinate-even Harry [Not hermione, no she never does that, but let's face it no one is an insufferable know it all :)], so go ahead, have fun waking up late and binge watching tv shows you already watched, you never watched or you just want to watch because when you have to pen down a dissertation, everything else seems more interesting, hell yeah! Losing weight suddenly becomes your top priority, playing matchmaker becomes so much more interesting, being heartbroken by celebrities become much more intense, because fuck writing your dissertation, that's why!

Also, writing a dissertation when you are pms-ing is not a good idea, instead of writing about figurative languages, you might end up literally killing people, so yeah, chill! Don't worry about the dissertation, you have plenty of times and you are going to make it in time.

See you more later,

Banana

Who Knew Chaos Was So Important!

Happy June!

I haven't been posting for a long time, probably because I got fixed. Apparently, when an artist or a writer is not feeling the pain anymore, they can not deliver in a poetic and artistic way anymore. I guess it's true, when there is no pain, you have nothing much to write about or to tell about. And when there is no happiness either, you can't brag much. What is it then, that exits beyond these two, what feeling is it? I don't know much about it, but peace seems to be the right answer. When there is no chaos in your life, be it a grieving one or a happy one, there is nothing to convey. the lack of chaos in your life will bring you peace, but a pale one. A peace that gives you inner calmness but does not exactly makes you bounce out of joy.

Peace makes you more relaxed, but it does not make you smile any more. But then again, happiness is a mood, so you are probably in the wrong mood, you just need to get into a chaotic happiness and everything will fall into place again!

Since, my chaotic side has been put to sleep, I sincerely do not have much to write about, so I'll just post a page from my diary:

"Rain and Tum Ho [Rockstar] is quite a lethal combination, /Been ages since I wrote down on paper and it feels amazing, /Do you think when you finally let everything burning inside of you go, there is a feeling of extreme loneliness tha starts crawling in again?/ A feeling that is just as bad as a heartbreak but also just as good as realising being lonely is not always a bad thing?/ When we finally give ourselves the permission to feel again, does it bring back all the pain?/ Or does it just feel numb and cold?/ Or have you not felt in so long that you don't know how it works anymore?/ Because feeling is just too hard at some points, and you just give up on it? Or do you just take a step back?

Well, I have no idea,/ When you put it into words it sounds easy, but when you have to live it, it's just a whole different universe./ I don't know how people really feel when they say 'I let it go, it feels so much better now,'/ The only 'it feels so much better now' moment for me is when I am lying somewhere I love with my favourite songs on, and my favourite food next to me and I am enjoying the cool breeze.."

It just ends here, I guess peace makes things so messed up you can't even finish a proper post. Anyways, have an amazing June, looking forward to re connecting with my chaotic self,

xoxo

Banana