Destroyed in Love.

"What's happened to you Hester?"
"Love, Bill. That's all."                         [TheDeepBlueSea]


Love.
It destroys you, doesn't it? 
The passion, the needs, the expectations.
[Okay, this movie was depressing.]
But,
"True Story,"
Being in love can be so consuming and so painful at times,
Especially when you love someone in a way they can never love you back,
Especially when you love with your everything,
You give all that you have, and in return you get very little,
Well, it's probably also true that love should be unconditional,
But when you are in love with someone, and you give them more than you actually have, and then, sitting there while waiting for them to do the same is a painful story.
In love, there is always that one person who will give all,
And that other person who will give just what is needed,
And this is precisely why love can destroy your soul,

Being passionately in love, and being depressed. I have no idea who this might be :3

Happy Friday! 
xo

#HappyBirthdayShakespeare

#HappyBirthdayShakespeare

Also, I will pretend I have no idea today is also the birthday of other people I might or might not know.

I am just going to quote 23 of my favourite Shakespeare-an quotes because my blog looks so boring nowadays and I don't really have time to write anything, so here goes!

1. "Love is not love/Which alters when it alteration finds." [Because this is probably my favourite quote and it also explains so so so so many things, and B.D on OTH?]

2. "Oh! You are sick of self love Malvolio!" [I have no idea why, but Malvolio is kind of my favourite character in TN, and I just happen to remember this quote, always.]

3. "Be not afraid of greatness. Some are born great, some achieve greatness and some have greatness thrust upon them." [AH! Alright, I can not explain why I love every one of these quotes. They are just really good and explain a lot of things, please refer to my previous blogposts.]

4. "If music be the food of love, play on,/Give me excess of it, that surfeiting/ The appetite may sicken, and so die." [Okay, this might be me. Duke Orsino is me. This quote reminds me of so many moments, really, lovey dovey ones, where you say really dumb things.]

5. "Make me a willow cabin at your gate." [Do not judge me, I studied TN for five years. Blame Cambridge. Also, this quote is just really close to my heart for some very personal reasons. I might or might not have used this quote to flirt. Nerdy ftw.]

6. "Who'er I woo,/Myself would be his wife." [Go Viola!]

7. "The world is a stage,/Everybody has a part to play,/And my part is a sad part." 

8. "All that glisters is not gold,/Often have you heard that told." 

9. "Love is blind and lovers cannot see,/The pretty follies,/That themselves commit." [Truest words have never been spoken before or even after. AH the follies you do when you are so blindly in love. Ask me about it.]

10. "Nothing will come of nothing./Speak Again!" [This quote used to be thrown out in every conversations we used to have in high school. And non-literary people would be like wtf?]

11. " I cannot heave my heart into my mouth." [Awww, how can you? You can never explain your love. Love is just unexplain-able. This may not be a real word but stfu]

12. "When we are born, we cry we have come to this stage of fools." [Shakespeare is a genius. If he was alive, I would totally date him. Like, there is a reason he is born on this glorious day. Uhm.]

13. "Now, gods, stand up for bastards." [Edmund might be the sexiest Shakesepeare-an character of all time. Just saying.]

14. " I am a man more sinn'd against than sinning." [How I love this quote, it reflects so many true situations and people.]

15. " I stumbled when I saw." [Okay, those are basically quotes that got stuck in my mind. But they also make a lot of sense. How wise is Gloucester now? Was it him who said that o.O Too lazy to google.]

16. "There is a tide in the affairs of men,/Which taken at the flood, leads on to fortune./Omitted all the voyage of their life is bound in shallows and in miseries." [Don't even get me started. Please refer to previous blogposts.]

17. "Cowards die many times before their actual deaths," [Honourable men! JKT, if you can not remember this then DIE!]

18. "Fair is foul/And foul is fair."

19. "What's done cannot be undone." [Also, let's take a moment to realise that Lady Macbeth was a cool chick. Something wicked this way comes.]

20. "These violent delights have violent ends." [How can I not mention R&J, I might have used quotes from this play for flirting purposes. Arrg. That's exactly why I am single.]

21. "Refuse thy name/Deny thy father?" [Why not? >.<]

22. "What's in a name?" 

23. "O Romeo, Romeo, Wherefore art thou Romeo?" [Seriously, this quote can not not make this list.]

Happy Shakespeare Day!

Have fun, quoting Shakespeare if you are a geek :3

xoxo

B.F.F. x.o.x.o

It's crazy how when you love somebody, you would do anything for them,
You would tolerate their every quirks and they would do the same for you, gladly!

They would spend hours on the phone with you, even if they are busy,
They would throw everything and run to you when you are in distress,
They would do extremely crazy stuff [like stalking people you do not like or hating on people you hate or punch someone in the face for you] just to know you are at peace with the world,

It's amazing how they can understand every single thing about you,
Without you even uttering a word, they can know what's going on in your mind or what you are up to,
They are going to do anything to make your stupid little wishes come true,
They would put up with your shit just because they love you in spite of every attitudes problems you might have,

What is more crazy, is that most of the time that person just happen to be your best friend,
Not the love of your life,
But the best friend you fought with so many times,
The best friend you might have doubted at some points in your life,
The best friend you might have deleted from your life for a while,

The best friend who in spite of everything, still put up with your shit because they love you more than anything and they would rather spend time listening to you complaining about your imaginary love life than investing in their real relationships.

If you have a best friend like that,
Make sure to never ever let them go or lose them,
Because people like these are rare and they are worth it,
And chances are, they won't even want to give up on you, ever.
So be grateful,
And thank everything you believe in, that you've been bestowed with such a person,
A person who wouldn't mind wasting their life listening to your crap just because they still believe there is hope,
They see hope within you, even when you have given up on it,
They see the light inside of you, even when you have embraced the darkness,
They believe in you, even when you have stopped believing.

Be grateful if you know someone like that,
Because not everyone is as lucky as you,
Not everyone has someone to miaow them at every single step of their lives! :3

I love you x 

I hate being bipolar, it's awesome!

JTK: "Do you know the meaning of DB?"
         "Depressed Bitch AKA YOU."
         "Get treated."

WHAT?
Okay this is a random post, and YES I am a DB. Proud DB. YAY.
What is wrong in believing that you'll probably end up alone,
Because I don't think I'll ever meet anyone who can put up with my DB-ness, okay?
So, let me believe there is no hope for me,
There is none,
I will end up like those Forever Alone Meme,
Because I can't be handled,
And I don't want to be handled by some random douche,
I want to be handled by someone who knows what the fuck he is doing and who knows what he is signing up for and who knows he ain't going anywhere,
And there is NO ONE like that [yet],
And this whole "handled" thing sounds so wrong [uhm].

So, yeah, I get a bit crazy with the assumptions sometimes,
What if "the one" is dead? [This is a legit probability.]
Also, I am not sick,
I just have really high expectations due to some fucked up previous relationships,
And it's okay to have high expectations,
It's okay to want everything when people have hurt you so bad in the past,

I don't need a doctor, I need love.
LOVE.
Also, love does not suck, okay?
JKT, die!

Okay, I don't care if you think I am crazy,
I am a pretty awesome person,
And I dream a lot [way too much],
But what the hell?
The world is so fucked up, we might as well just dream and believe in happy endings and rainbow bridges and fluffy unicorns!
So, let me dream,
And let me be a DB,
Because I love being in distress,
I love this shit; it's called being in love with the idea of love, I am literally Duke Orsino,
And sometimes I go around saying "If music be the food of love, play on, give me more,"
I am a crazy crazy person,
Welcome to my world!

xo
ZOuBanana!

Have you walked in their shoes?

Alright,
I haven't written in a while, mainly because I am swamped with essays and revisions,
My friend just reminded me of my blog and I thought I should probably write something,

So,
Hello World! :)

You know this feeling when you are so tired and you want to give up on everything?
Yeah, you have this almost everyday,
Especially when you are doing a Master Degree [[in Psychology.]], and you hate waking up every morning,
Last night,
My bff was ranting about how people are ungrateful and that people are dying in Syria and everything else that requires your heart to break,
I agree with her,
It's harder for other people, because they are not as blessed as we are,
They don't even have food,
They can't have an education,
But, again, I might come as an insensitive bitch here, 
Everyone is fighting their own battles, aren't they?
You don't really know what it's like for another person,
No matter how well you know someone, you have no idea what they might be going through,
You have no idea what their journey has been like,
You have no idea how horrible their lives might be,
So, I choose to believe everyone has the right to complain at some point,
Because everyone has issues,
Everyone has to deal with some crap you've never faced,
Everyone, at some point, has a difficult life and a horrible job,
And if you are not happy in life,
You can complain!

Sure, people are dying everywhere else,
But sometimes, it's hard to face certain things,
And it's difficult to take a stand and be who you are expected to be,
Sometimes the pressure is too much,
Sometimes life is not fair,
So, I think I'll let everyone complain and whine [[mainly because I am good at this shit]],
Because you never know what's going on in their lives/in their mind [[Psychologically speaking, they might be totally deranged.]],
You haven't walked in their shoes,

But again, don't over-dramatise,
Because sometimes, you really need to suck it up, because people are fucking dying everywhere else!

Anyways,
Happy Revision Everyone!
Ain't life awesome? We have just ONE paper to write :)
And after that, we have just ONE dissertation to write.
So, be positive!
Happy April :)
ZOu x

Will I see you tonight, on a downtown train?

I know your window and I know it's late..

Love =]

Every night when my bff and I talk, we discuss those crazy probabilities of our future,
And every night, at the end of each one of those convos my friend reminds me that none of these things are going to happen,
Because, my dreams are never going to come true,
Because, my expectations are too high,
Because, my checklist is surreal,
Because I am this stupid, hopeless, romantic person who thinks one day she is going to meet this other person who is just as geeky and romantic as she is,
And sometimes I tell myself, she is probably right,
But deep down, I believe she is not, 

I know I will find love,
The truest one,
The purest one,
The one that is meant to be mine,
The one that will make my every dreams come true,
The one that will last!

And, if you are a desperate and hopeless romantic person like me,
Do not give up,
It will happen,
It is meant to happen,
We all have the power to live our dreams,
And we all have the right to live it with the person who is just as weird as we are,
It does not matter how long it takes,
It will eventually happen,
At the right time,
When you deserve it the most,
When you are probably about to give up on everything,

You will meet that person who will change everything,
It won't be as dreamy as in movies,
But it will be worth it :)
So, keep believing,
Never give up!

xoxo
PinkNose x

How Ted Found Love ♡

"Aunt Lily wasn't wrong, it was at times a long, difficult road but I am glad it was long and difficult, because if I hadn't gone through hell to get there, the lesson might not have been this clear.  You see kids, right from the moment I met your mom, I knew I have to love this woman as much as I can, for as long as I can and I can never stop loving her, not even for a second.  I carry this lesson with me,  through every stupid fights we ever had, every 5 am Christmas morning, every sleepy Sunday afternoon,  through every speed bump, every pang of jealousy or boredom or uncertainty that came our way, I carry that lesson with me, and I carried it with me when she got sick, even then, in what can only be called the worst times, all I could do was thank God, thank every God there is or there ever was or there will be and the whole universe and anyone else I could possibly thank, when I saw that beautiful girl on that train platform and that I had the guts to stand up, walk over to her, tap her on the shoulder, open my mouth, and speak..

And that kids, is how I met your mother!"

Awwww, Ted Evelyn Mosby ♥

I don't care how bad people thought the ending was,

I loved every single second of it,

It was beautiful and realistic,
And it's magic how, even though Ted & Tracy were perfect for each other, they were never meant to be together forever,

Ted & Robin,  on the other hand, 
Belonged with each other from the beginning,
And though it was late,
They found their way to each other,

This, is Love :)

And I love how Ted got both his first and his true love,

Because he deserved every single second of it,
Everyone does,
And in the end,
Everyone will find theirs :)

Happy April's Fool x

Zou ☆