RainyNights

It's raining again.  Happy Birthday Harry btw :3
Rainy nights are just reminders that the stupidest thing we do in life is, falling in love with the wrong people, the wrong dreams,  the wrong realities.  They are reminders of how we sometimes believe and live in a reality that does not make sense; a reality that demands to be checked and modified because life is so much better than this.
Life is so much better than some of the things we believe in, some people we blindly trust and some dreams we have worked for-in vain.
Rainy nights are reminders that nothing lasts forever,  and those who do-well, familiarity does breed contempt, doesn't it?
Rainy nights are there because it's important you question your life and the people you allow in it.

Let's just say rainy nights keep us grounded- too much flying ain't good for health :)

Life is a roller coaster,  ain't it? We just have to choose to close our eyes when it's going down because no matter how long the fall is, it has to go up.  And no matter how scary it gets, the thrill is just as awesome.

Happy Eid :)
xoxo
Banana

Change

Samjhawan is on replay.

Sometimes, there are moments in your life- no one else can share. It doesn't matter what you are going through-happiness, victory, loneliness, loss-whatever the emotion is-there are times in life you just feel it is important you go through those particular moments by yourself. Probably because you know once this moment has gone, you will be a different person.

There are times in our lives we believe that going through pain or a big change will alter who we are, but there are times when we can change without any reason- maybe we realise something, or we just feel like it. And those are the moments you can never share with any one else, no matter how close they are to you- you know they won't understand crap and they'll probably not be of any help.

Those moments are the ones we learnt about in class [hello geeky me], being alone without being lonely- finding your way without having anyone holding out a helping hand, being happy without any reasons, crying because you can and you know you need to do it once in a while. Probably, sheer moments of enlightment, where you don't need anyone else, where you don't want anyone else-because you are finally content with your life and you feel complete without the rest of the world by your side.

On a completely different note, Brazil needs to improve-FOOTBALL AND ENTERTAINMENT-wise. Not that I was a fan. Such a shame Robben and the Oranje couldn't make it to the final, but yeah, #ComeonGermany!

Banana x

The Plan

"The great moments of your life won't necessarily be the things you do, they'll also be the things that happen to you. Now, I'm not saying you can't take action to affect the outcome of your life, you have to take action, and you will. But never forget that on any day, you can step out the front door and your whole life can change forever. You see, the universe has a plan kids, and that plan is always in motion. A butterfly flaps its wings, and it starts to rain. It's a scary thought but it's also kind of wonderful. All these little parts of the machine constantly working, making sure that you end up exactly where you're supposed to be, exactly when you're supposed to be there. The right place at the right time." -HIMYM

Happy July!

Honestly, I don't have time to write anymore- I am way too busy not eating and writing my dissertation.

I watched this HIMYM episode again today, and this quote just had to be here,because as it's suggested, the universe definitely has a plan- one that might not match yours and one that might be so much better. I remember at one point telling myself that the plan i had in head failed and i did everything wrong-all my choices were failures, and now, a year later, I am glad the plan did not go as I planned it, I am glad the Universe's plan worked, because I am in a better place and much happier than i could ever imagine. If my plan was successful, I would probably be completely lost by now. So, yeah, if you feel your plan is not working, don't worry, God's is working and it will bring you better stuff! Believe in it and let it happen!

Happy Ramadan,

xoxo

Banana

Home :]

London

I freaking love London,

It's probably because I am not from here and I come from a place that is so different. People from here think I am crazy because I am so in love with this city. Maybe I am,

All my life I've dreamt of being here, and actually being here made me love the place even more. I love everything about London, the ugly weather, the cold, the crowd, the rush, the trains, the busy places, the shopping [heaven really], the river, the Victorian buildings, the landmarks, the people,

Everything that London has to offer is heaven for me, and all I want to do is spend my life here. There is no where else in the world I would rather be. London is kind of "Home" now, because this where my heart lies,

Also, [this is out of context] but WTF GERRARD. And Suarez needs to die-he's fugly.

I am too stressed to keep writing-football is just stressing!
Happy World Cup!

Idontf*ckingcare-ILoveEnglandandRooney! #ComeonEngland!

Banana xo

Get Sad Night!

It's get sad night.
Because this is actually a thing, YES!

Sad playlists, sad philosophical thoughts, sad faces, well, just everything that makes you sad, because as it's been put so perfectly, "it's good to be sad every now and then!"

It's almost like a virtual slumber party, except it's not a slumber party, it's just two people skype-ing as usual and being sad just because "tragedy is the new cool!"
Also, we should probably get our get psyched mix, because being sad is just tiring!
What's the purpose of pondering on things that make you sad when there is not exactly a lot you can do to change it [in our cases], when you feel the need to have a get sad night, just remember being sad takes too much energy, invest it in something better, i don't know like, planning the cray cray tour or all the cray cray stuff that will happen during that tour, because what happens in Europe, stays in Europe :3

Be happy, be so happy that everything else does not matter,
Be happy because sometimes that's all that really make sense,
Be happy because no one deserves to have their heart broken, except for some bitches here and there :3

I read this somewhere, it goes a bit like this: When you are sad about your life, remember there is someone who's thankful for your existence.
Shit like that!

xoxo
Banana!

Denial Dissertation

Dear all,

The solution to writing a good research paper is never found in binge-watching-himym! Never! But, that's a good start, you can always do your best when the deadline is near. Don't worry, every one procrastinate-even Harry [Not hermione, no she never does that, but let's face it no one is an insufferable know it all :)], so go ahead, have fun waking up late and binge watching tv shows you already watched, you never watched or you just want to watch because when you have to pen down a dissertation, everything else seems more interesting, hell yeah! Losing weight suddenly becomes your top priority, playing matchmaker becomes so much more interesting, being heartbroken by celebrities become much more intense, because fuck writing your dissertation, that's why!

Also, writing a dissertation when you are pms-ing is not a good idea, instead of writing about figurative languages, you might end up literally killing people, so yeah, chill! Don't worry about the dissertation, you have plenty of times and you are going to make it in time.

See you more later,

Banana

Who Knew Chaos Was So Important!

Happy June!

I haven't been posting for a long time, probably because I got fixed. Apparently, when an artist or a writer is not feeling the pain anymore, they can not deliver in a poetic and artistic way anymore. I guess it's true, when there is no pain, you have nothing much to write about or to tell about. And when there is no happiness either, you can't brag much. What is it then, that exits beyond these two, what feeling is it? I don't know much about it, but peace seems to be the right answer. When there is no chaos in your life, be it a grieving one or a happy one, there is nothing to convey. the lack of chaos in your life will bring you peace, but a pale one. A peace that gives you inner calmness but does not exactly makes you bounce out of joy.

Peace makes you more relaxed, but it does not make you smile any more. But then again, happiness is a mood, so you are probably in the wrong mood, you just need to get into a chaotic happiness and everything will fall into place again!

Since, my chaotic side has been put to sleep, I sincerely do not have much to write about, so I'll just post a page from my diary:

"Rain and Tum Ho [Rockstar] is quite a lethal combination, /Been ages since I wrote down on paper and it feels amazing, /Do you think when you finally let everything burning inside of you go, there is a feeling of extreme loneliness tha starts crawling in again?/ A feeling that is just as bad as a heartbreak but also just as good as realising being lonely is not always a bad thing?/ When we finally give ourselves the permission to feel again, does it bring back all the pain?/ Or does it just feel numb and cold?/ Or have you not felt in so long that you don't know how it works anymore?/ Because feeling is just too hard at some points, and you just give up on it? Or do you just take a step back?

Well, I have no idea,/ When you put it into words it sounds easy, but when you have to live it, it's just a whole different universe./ I don't know how people really feel when they say 'I let it go, it feels so much better now,'/ The only 'it feels so much better now' moment for me is when I am lying somewhere I love with my favourite songs on, and my favourite food next to me and I am enjoying the cool breeze.."

It just ends here, I guess peace makes things so messed up you can't even finish a proper post. Anyways, have an amazing June, looking forward to re connecting with my chaotic self,

xoxo

Banana