BLOW!

HOME ALONE!!!!!

Chocolate Biscuit!!!!

Pretty much sums up my Sunny Sunday (:
Yes! It's Sunny in London! YAY!
No! It's not snowing yet. WHY?

People keep calling me on Skype.YAY!
There is this weirdo who keeps whatsapp-ing me and is still not singing to me.WHY?
YOU NEED TO SING FOR ME!!!!

I want babies. BABIES.
I mean. I love babies. Any baby.

GOOD MORNING APARTMENT! Ready to start the day!
1.2.3. I AM SO PUMPED UP!
YAAAAAY!
Alright, I am so obsessed with the Lego Movie right now. 
I might watch it for my birthday. Or maybe I should watch Only Lovers Left Alive.TOM.OMG.NO.It won't be out yet for my birthday.NOT SURE.IF.I.CAN.WATCH.TOM.KISS.OR.DO.THINGS.TO.SOME.ONE.ELSE.I.MIGHT.HAVE.A.HEART.ATTACK.AND.DIE.ON.MY.BIRTHDAY.YAY.

Everything is awesome.OMG.I.LOVE.THIS.SONG.
Pretty sure this guy is the happiest Lego on earth.
I wish I was a Lego. 
I wish I was a Minion. Like. I could work in Gru's lab. And go cray.cray. and sing the banana song.

September 2014.
#Cantwait!
The checklist keep increasing and getting crazier by day!
I am MAD. Mad that Ted & Robin won't end up together. I thought I made peace with the fact that Ted & the mother were cute together. BUT MAN! Ted & Robin is SO SO SO EPIC. It's like Stefan & Elena, Brooke & Lucas, Ross & Rachel, Cole & Phoebe, Chuck & Blair, Hanna & Caleb, did I miss a couple? 

She's the man. NEED TO WATCH IT TODAY. MISS IT SO MUCH.
Yeah, so, TED & ROBIN? So so so so so perfect.
Why are we even talking about that.
And kids, this is the story of how I NEVER met your dad!
I am so lame! YAY!

For my birthday, I need a minion. and a Tom. a MINION TOM.YAY!
Alright, pretty sure I'm having sugar rush again. TOO.MUCH.CHOCOLATE.IN.MY.BLOOD.SYSTEM!

Random Posts are the best. 
I love how I am random-writing again!
I love ME!
YAY!
YOU SHOULD ALL LOVE ME TOO!

UNICORNSSSS!
BABY CORNS!
YAY!

And I'm turning 23 in less than one month.23.Read this post. Do I sound like a 23-years-old? A 3 years old. YAAAAAAY!
James Blunt. <3 aaaaah="" font="">

xoxo
Pink Nose (:

The Purest Form Of Love, Said She ♡

I can't believe I am actually saying this but I am afraid to LOVE!

You know, reading previous crazy stories about us, 
The shits we could come up with,
The moments we created,
The lines that marked us forever,
Those were just the golden days?

I don't know,
Somehow, after living through everything,
I feel like this is history,
There is no going back,
We can never be the same,
We can never just sit in a public place and chill and LITERALLY crap-talk.
I feel like we lost the magic we had,
The bond we had,
The thing that made us one.

But what was it?
What in the world was it that made us so perfect and amazing together?
Why did we lose the power to "entertain ourselves" ? [[A.R, 2014]]
Was it just friendship?
Or was it something beyond any kind of love?
Or were we soul-mates?

Then, why?
How?
Is it possible to grow apart that much if we were soul mates?
I don't know.
So many questions.
So many things going on in my mind right now.

Did we change I asked?
This is what I got as a reply: "We grew a crust around us/So the dirty world cannot steal us nor hurt us/
Because we are awesome people./We love each other, without needing each other.. and this is the purest form of love!!!"

Such a beautiful and wonderful thing to say.
The purest form of love.
No, I am not afraid of that kind of love,
I am just afraid I won't be able to live up to it?
I am just afraid I'll lose everything.AGAIN.

You know what?
I have the best friend[s] in the world!
No matter where, or when.
If one of us decide to stop and look back,
We just become insanely in love again!
We just realise that we do not need to be with each other everyday,
Or talk everyday,
Or talk in months,
We can go back to loving each other the same whenever we feel like it.
And maybe, this is the purest form of love.

Love is not that man who cares for you or give up on everything for you,
No, this ain't love.
Love is calling someone after months and telling them,
"Do you remember that crazy day we had?" And out of the blue, we just become the bestest of friends again, talking, gossiping, sharing, loving!
What a strange relationship, isn't it?
Some days you just sit there,
Alone, thinking, no one cares.
But all it takes is just one message,
And you realise,
You are not alone,
You still have the world's purest form of love,
What do you need more?

Don't be afraid to go back to that love.
Don't be afraid to look back and be happy.
It is such an amazing power to look back and not cry.

I honestly, am so afraid of Love.
The kind of love you have for a man, or a person you grow close to.
But after remembering all the good times we've been through,
I can say.
I won't be afraid of Love now.
At least not of the purest form of love :)
Because it changes your world,
It changes who you are,
It makes you genuinely HAPPY!

There's a quote of mine: "Together nothing was ever right,/ Apart everything shall be wrong."
It's probably four years old?
I love how I could come up with such lines.
That was the kind of love I was afraid of,
I gave so much to that kind of love,

And here's the kind of love that lasts: JaanE kyun Dil Jaanta Hai :D Tu Hai to I'll be alright! :)

Give everything in love. Not the wrong one. The right one. The pure one. The real one.
It will never hurt. Never.

"Yours in the ranks of death" haha!

xoxo
Far-Ha! :D ♡

P.S. Can we all take a moment to appreciate the fact that T.H is the perfect man for me? Thanks. 

Random.Really.

Hello World! [[Again!]]
Okay, I just made up my mind,
This year I'm going to write. A LOT. [[Omg. This reminds of sth :$]]

As usual, hours before submitting a paper,
I feel like I should write here :)
Why?
No idea. I just feel like writing. 
Been ages I didn't complain about school o.O
I guess I am in a happy place =]

Everything seems so amazing tonight (:
Why?
No idea.
It just feels like there are unicorns pooping rainbow all over the place.
My God.
I need to get a life.
I need to get a life with Tom.
Seriously.
This man is just. I can't even.
I'm not sure there are men like him anymore.
If there are, PLEASE get your bum here.

Okay I need to get back to my paper.
xoxo
ZOu (:

Bling Blooh Blah :)

Alright.
I'm not sure if it's the New Year or all those essays due or Tom, [Oh Tom.], but I feel like posting a lot :)
Well, my posts do not really make sense nowadays,
But who cares? 
As long as I'm writing again :)
Writing is so sacred. And not writing for one year = trouble. I was troubled. Maybe depressive. Or unhappy.
I don't know.
While re reading my past posts, I found out how excited I used to be about going to Uni in London. And here I am :)
IN LONDON FFS!!!!!
And you know what? I am HAPPY. I am LIVING my dream.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT? This year will be the year of my life.
I have it all. On paper. The places I am going, the things I need to do at least once in my life, the crazy crazy adventures I'll go on.
I don't care what happens this year. I'm going to LIVE MY LIFE LIKE I'VE NEVER DONE IT BEFORE!
You should do it to :)

No matter where you are. WAKE UP!
LIVE.
What if you are not living your dream (like I am :D),
You'll live it tomorrow :)
I waited for three years, and now it's finally happening!!
Not letting go.
Don't care if I still do not have a Valentine this year =]
Or if I haven't kissed anyone in ages o.O
This year. I'm doing it all. 

Oh btw. I used to be so excited about snow in my past posts. WTH? Where's the snow man?
I'm still waiting. 
UK don't be crazy. Snow already >.<

YAY!
And you know what?
I'm not getting married to some random guys. I'm not getting married at all.
Still waiting for this guy. The one with the blue eyes, with the sexy moves, who can quote Shakespeare and what not, with the cutest damn expressions.
Yeah. Where do you get one of those? 

xoxo
ZOu (:

Dear People!

I've been going through my older posts [[instead of writing a paper due on Wednesday (A)]] and I realised how awesome life is and how amazing relationships are.
Sometimes I wake up and I feel like giving up on everyone,
But after re-reading my posts,
I'll wake up HAPPY every morning.
I'll wake up to make things better =]
And I realised,
If you loved a person once,
You are always going to love them,
Because you cannot love just for a while,
You love forever,
You just get used to those people not being around,
You just get used to those people not saying Iloveyou back,
And somewhere along the line, 
You stop saying Iloveyou :)

Reading my past posts make me so happy and I feel so wise o.O
I am not high anymore. Just in love with the World =]
Life is so beautiful.
We need to stop.Everyday.And realise how amazing this Life is. How beautiful the World is. How wonderful people are.
We need to love. We need to be happy.
We need to let go of pain.
We need to laugh and smile =]

[[BUT DON'T YOU LOVE TOM OKAY? HE IS MINE. I AM GOING TO HUNT HIM DOWN AND MAKE HIM MINE.HE MAKES ME HAPPY.]]

Don't worry about the pain Life gives you,
There's a reason pain exists.
In the end, it will all make sense.

And if it doesn't,
then it's probably not the end yet :)

Don't be in a hurry to find peace, happiness or love.
It will happen.
You just need to wait.
Sometimes, all we need to do is wait :)

Have patience. And smile.
iloveyoupeople ♡

and imissyou guys so much : Anii: Get a life and get your bum here. We need to get drunk and have awesome one-night stands :P
Sharee: Don't even get me started. 5 years we haven't been together for my birthday.5years.September.
Pit: I miss you man. ♡


blooh xoxo
ZOu ♡

High on London & misc.

Crazy crazy crazy nights.

The past few nights have been crazy and AWESOME! 
London ♥
Alright. I'm bipolar. Sometimes I hate the place and sometimes I love it.
Did you know that being bipolar is something completely different? Yeah, well. I'm a psychologist. -.-
I'm a Psychologist. This sounds so weird.
I wish I could say I'm a writer. Or I'm anything else. Psychologist.

Anyways,
I'm kind of happy nowadays. For no reasons.
No, I'm not in love. 
Love is not real.
Love hurts. 
I'm high.
Yeah. Sometimes I get sugar rush? Yeah. Because I ate so many chocolates and sweets. I go a little cray cray.
I love Tom. Okay. Tom is not a cat. And he is not a character in Damry's primary school essay.
Tom is ♥ I love Tom.
I'm high on Tom. 
If Tom was here, I'd do haraam things to him. 
Shut up.
Get a life.
I'm talking to myself.

Nearly FEBRUARY. MY BIRTHDAY.WAKE UP WORLD!!!!!
SEND ME GIFTS FROM ALL OVER THE WORLD.
SOMEBODY GIFT ME TOM!!!!
SOMEBODY WRAP TOM UP IN A BOX.
SOMEBODY. Is that a song? 
I can't believe I'm high.

I can't wait for September. People are coming here. And it's going to be LEGENDARY. Wait. Why have I not watched HIMYM in a long time? Is it not on? >.<

Basically, this is just a random post. Read me. Like. Read my past posts. They are pretty good.

Have fun.
So high.
xoxo
ZOu ♥

2014. Everything's gonna be awesome.

Happy 2014 World!
Can't believe I haven't been writing for over a year.
Time flies and somewhere along, I forgot how to write.
I just can't come up with awesome posts anymore.

2014 in London. THE dream. It's happening and somehow, everything's missing.
All the plans, all the checklists.
Everything is so lifeless.

Maybe I'm over-reacting.
*Everything is awesome* The Awesome Lego Song. Stuck in my head.
So many essays to write. So many tests to study for.
It's a busy busy busy year.

Okay, what am I even writing? I'm a failure. -.-

Last night I told myself : I'm giving up. Giving up on all the plans I made, because I feel like it's not working.
Today: My bff said "I'm giving up!"
Why?
Why are we giving up on things that we've both dreamt about?
Why should we give up on things we still believe in?
Why do we HAVE to give up?
When is it going to be our go?
When is it going to be the day when we wake up and we realise everything is working perfectly, nothing can go wrong now?
So many times, we've give up on things we held close to our hearts,
Every time it's the same song,
And maybe this is the way it's meant to be.
Maybe we just need to give up on everything so we get better things?
Not so sure anymore..

Happy 2014 people!
Right now: So in Love with this blue-eyed guy. He is not even real dude. I need to get a life.

xoxo
ZOu <3 p="">