Last night..

I fell in love without you..♥

I waved good bye to that heart of mine ♫

And came the point where you realised,

There is nothing left to save..

There is nothing left to fight for..

There is nothing left to mend..

There is nothing left..

No more matters what happened..

No more matters where it all went wrong..

No more matters why we could not save it..

♫Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise,
In memory of what we used to call in love..♥

Time heals it all, they say..

Time itself caused the wound, how will It heal it?

Everything happens for a reason, they say..

Still can not figure out the reason this time.

Last night i fell in love without you..

I fell in love, indeed.. ♥

I fell in love with the night,

I fell in love with the song..

I fell in love with the memories..♥

I fell in love without you...

And again, came the point where you realised,

Dreams remain dreams,

Promises are made to be broken,

The Past never come back..

Fight not against your fate,

You cannot control it..

Try not to write your destiny,

It was written beforehand..

Love not what's forbidden,

Tears are the only things you'll get back..

Yes, Last Night i fell in Love..

without you..♥

Farah .x.

Perhaps not till the end..

It's raining..♥


i ain't missing you..


i want to dance with you..♥


show me the way to the ballroom..


i want to be in your arms and forget everything else..♥


i want to look into your eyes and hear you whisper in my ears..


it won't stop raining tonight and i know this feeling won't ever go away..♥


the feeling of being in love with you..♥
the feeling i have when you look into my eyes..


tonight..
i just remembered i will love you forever..♥




zou..

22,06,2010 ♥

It shows 10 32 pm on my PC.

It ain't 10 32.

It is 16 32 and i decided it was time to write something here.

I have nothing concrete to write about, today.

I am not at all sleepy PLUS i did not sleep for the past four days.

I am not in love. Very far from it, in fact.

I had a wonderful day out yesterday with awesome people.

My feet hurt all night and i could not sleep again.

Whoever said that it is the little moments in life which makes it worth living, must have had friends like mine.♥

Indeed, life is worth living when you keep laughing for no actual reasons.

Life becomes worth living when you smile at your computer's screen dumbly.

Life becomes worth living when you spend hours sitting with great people and talking of NOTHING♥

Life becomes worth living when you have real friends.

And, once more, life starts tasting GOOD.

There are ups and downs.

But, when you have friends, it's all about rising from your ashes.

Life ain't easy.

But, when you have friends, it's all about fighting and winning.

People leave, hearts are broken.

But, when you have friends, it's all about not giving a damn and ENJOYING every single second of your existence on earth.

Life is short.

Some say it is long.

Who cares? As long as, we have people to live it with and end it with.

Some say friends ain't forever.

But, when you have lived so much and seen so much, you know they are somehow going to make it till your last breath.

Be it in real or in memories.

They are going to be there, when you close your eyes..

..Because we have so many more fun to have together..

..Because though all good things come to an end, our time won't come that soon..

..Because every time we laugh, it is a new memory which is being born..

..Because every time we part, we know it's only the beginning of another wonderful moment, yet to come..

(I am totally addicted to Gossip Girl *_*)

You know you love me :P

xoxo

~Fa~

Don't run away..

There is a point in our lives, where we all feel we need to go.

We need to go far, and go somewhere else.

Some place where no one knows us.

But most of the time, what we really need is to be in a place where no one knows about our PAST.

Our past,

Our mistakes,

Our failures,

Our pain,

Our broken soul..

Many are those, who need to run away.

Run away from their past.

Run away from the present perhaps.

~A present which they so want to be forgotten.~

Run away from their pain.

Run away from all the things they could not accomplish.

Run away from the task of answering people.

Run away from faking a smile.

Run away.

Why am i writing about such a thing?

I am part of these people too.

I want to run away.

I WANT TO GO and start a new life, away from all my mistakes & pain.

But, i won't.

I could.

I won't.

Ask why?

Because i have the power to stay and face the truth.

I have the power to stay and see my world fall apart in front of my eyes.

I have the power to stay and assume my failures.

I have the power to stay and show to the world, that i am still THE ONE who can shine in the darkest of times.

I can thanks the people of my life AGAIN.

But i won't. :)

Because it is not always them who give me the power.

Sometimes, i find it within myself.

Sometimes, i owe my everything to nobody but MYSELF.

I love being who i am.

I love being egocentric.

I love being bad.

I love being a brat.

AND, i do not run away from all the mistakes i did.

Instead, i don't give a damn.

Call me what you want,

I'll still love myself,

~ZOu~

~Queens surrounded by Sluts~

Who are we?

Certainly not gossip girl.

[[Not addicted yet, but still loving Gossip Girl-Blame Ani :)]]

We are Queens.

We are mighty.

We are a class above.

We are Loreto babes. [[Euh, sorry are you from LCM or LCQB? ---> Then, you are not in our list of "Mighty Girls".]]

We are everything some girls would love to be.

We are everything some girls envy.

We are certainly EVERY SINGLE THING some girls hate.

We might not be stars, but we do shine.

We might not be gorgeous, but we do take breaths away.

We might not be rich, but we are priceless.

Yeah, we are Queens.

Queens, you are going to hate.

Queens, you are going to imitate. [[Oh! I know some of em :P]]

Queens, you can never resemble, no matter how hard you try.

"I'm not anyone, I'm me." -Blair Waldorf-

 It's not as if all the eyes were on us during a party,

Actually---> IT IS :)

Hell, we are famous.

So famous, that people make us shine more and more.

So famous, that people make us more beautiful.

So famous, that people give us the best boyfriends out there. [[Yes, sometimes we are going out with guys and OMG, nobody even informed us -.-"]]

So famous, that people made us hot, without us asking for it. 

The title of the post reads "Queens surrounded by Sluts".

Well, the sluts are you.

[[Okay, not YOU :) If you are one of us (~Real Women~), then you are no slut :)]]

The sluts who are so bent on being like us.

The sluts who are real pain in our asses.

The sluts who cannot stand us.

~Well, this post is dedicated to you, wonderful sluts~

Wonderful, because you make us mightier.

Wonderful, because you make us more beautiful.

Wonderful, because despite being ass holes and getting on our nerves, you make us realise ---> We are what YOU can never be.

And, NOT to forget,

There are those sluts who love flirting with our men.

Well, those sluts can go to hell.

~It is not us who said it, it is the guys themselves who said it : "They can never be you.."~

Because we are out of your league.

We are real Queens.

No matter how bitchy & sometimes hysterical,

We are REAL WOMEN.

~Farah~

19 MONTHS and 4 years..

19 years and 4 months…

“Roté hai hum bhi agar teri akhoon mein asoon aaté hai..gaana to nahin aaté magar phir bhi hum gaaté hai..”

Originally, this song was written for Aditi, in Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na. BUT, after living a more s*cking life than Aditi, this song was sang for me by 3 IDIOTS :)
Indeed. Who would celebrate their depressed, heart broken friend’s 19th plus four months old birthday? IF NOT IDIOTS?
It’s not as if I was ungrateful.
This birthday was better than my actual 19th one,
PLUS, they intend to celebrate my birthday EVERY MONTH!
Friends--> Do you have these basically bitchy and crappy people in your lives too? If yes, you’d understand what I am talking of :)
Just because they could not bear my tears.
Just because they could not bear my pain.
Just because, they needed me to smile for them to be happy.
Just because, all they know is that, their friend needs to be happy and bubbly again.

Me : “Li abitier sof so lame ek m lazou :(”
Heer : “Ey vremm ta! geT! Pa bzn tous la zou la mm, d loin mm tp senti saler la-avoy zot lame pu sofé”
(Haha! This one made me LOL! Heer :) I once misunderstood him. I wished I never had. He loves me more than the person I fought with him for.)
Heer is a complete JOKER.
Ani : “ M kuzin so kamarad ti sant yeh dosti r li airport ek li ti plorer tou :O”
Heer: “Taey!! imP tro la Oo”
Desh : “kav zot ti xtra proche”
Me: “Kumen tw ek Pit!”
Heer : “Ki AVI ALER? SA M DANSER SA! M dans madras tou!!!!”
(Bwahahaha and he was actually dancing. He dances while being on his seat. Yes, Heer is one of his kind. And all that, was just to make me laugh for some minutes.)
 
Me : “mp alE! Tne dir sa nom la :("
Heer : “EY TENTION LA EIN :@ PERSONNE PA PU PRONONCE SA NOM LA LA-KIKEN DIR SA LA, M BEZ LI N KOUT POINT EN MODE SLOW MOTION, SO LA KRASS TOU SOTER!!”
You call yourself a friend,
Did you ever make fun of yourself for your best friend?
Did you ever go to the extent of spending your whole salary on your best friend just because you needed her to be happy?
Did you ever celebrate your friends 19th and 4 months’ old birthday?

My friends did.
And they are the world’s bestest ones.
Did you ever hate other people for your friend’s sake?
Did you ever plan to go kill somebody for real just because they broke your friends’ heart?
Did you ever sang “Ey kya bolti tu”, doing the actual dancing steps for your depressed friend?
Did you ever sang your own version of “Yeh kaali kaali ankhein” with wonderful sitting dancing steps for your stupid heartbroken friend?

Well, my friends did.
And, I love them.

For my 19th and 4 months old birthday, Heer gave me his heart.
In the literal sense.
He went on an island, early this morning, to go dig the beach and find the place where he once buried his heart in the box of Pandora.
(I know, this makes no sense and it’s a mixture of The Pirates of the Carribeans and the Greek mythology, but that’s what he claimed. And, if you think this makes no sense, then you’re dumb. :) )
Then, he took out the Box Of Pandora while we were having lunch at Pizza Hut (Modern world, yes!!!) And told me, he was going to gift me his heart. The original one.
And he took out, the cutest and sweetest of all the hearts I EVER saw!!! ( No, I never saw a real heart before, but some one once gave me his heart, and I do not want to talk about it.)
PLUS, to prove it was original --> It was written at the back of the heart “ ORIGINAL” :)
Yeah, I know, Heer is crazy.
But, this is the sweetest thing any one ever did.
And he told me,
“To kner komier mwe suffer la? Mpna leker. T mm pa kpv imaginer a ki point li difficil pu viv sans n leker original. Garde li bien.”
 
Ani : “ Jab kissi ki taraf dil (BLAH)”
Me : “ Li ti sant sa pu mw la vey li ti kass m leker..”
Heer : “PA FER NARIER, SI LI RE KASS TO LEKER TO DIR LI “MWENA N RESANZ!!! EK SENLA LI ORIGINAL EK INCASSABLE!!!!!!” 
 
Haha :) No, you can’t understand the logic of desperate friends who wants a crazy girl’s happiness. 
 
After much discussion about some random  obese girl,
Me : “Lin ekrir lor so wall tou :( ek li ti p VIZ MW!!!”
Ani : “WEH PTASS LA!! M DTESTER LI EK you know who”
Heer : “Lin ekrir lor so WALL? MW TO KNER KI MTI PU FER DAN TO PLAS???? MTI PU AL EKRIR LOR SO WALL LAKAZ!!!”
Me : “Ki toti pu ekrir? Oo”
Heer : “Weh ki mti pu kpv ekrir Oo”
Ani : “Heer is the best”
Heer : “WEH!!!!!”
 
OMG :O
I love them.   
I just put make up on my face.
The make up things I got for my 19th and 4 months old one.
It’s perfect.
I feel BEAUTIFUL.
 
Desh : “ZOu (BLAH)”
Me : “Pa apel mw zou :(”
Ani : “weh pa apel li kumsa -.-“
Heer : “B kumen twapel li alor? FAM? “
Me : “Kumen to knerrrrrr?????”
Ani : “weh kumen to kne sa tw?”
Heer : “ B kan to sorti ek n fam to pa apel li fam? “
Ani : “WTF :O B ki to dir to fam “EY FAM VIN LA” “
Heer : “B weh! YO FAM! JE TE LOVE!”
 
What the HELL? (Yeah, I know :) )
These are MY people.
They could do anything to make me laugh.
Even if they had to go to that slut’s house (NO :) Don’t worry slut, we know you have your man, but you SUCK :)) and break her face, just because I was hating her, they would have done it.
Even if they happen to be friends with the person who broke me, and they had to go KILL HIM, I know they would not hesitate. Because, all that matter, is that I smile and be happy.

*After Sharee’s call*
 
Ani : “B shareeza kaV to mama so kamarad sa ousoi TO kamarad? M dakor tpa bzn lev lavoi mai ENA FOI TO BZN LEV TO LAVOI!!!”
Desh : “weh m ti lire sa parla”
Heer : “SA WEH!!!! POLITICIENNE INNE!!!!!”
 
Haha :) In case you did not know, Ani intends to be a politician.
And, according to Heer, she’s best friends with Dinesh whatever and Kalayani whoever :) And they text her at night and ask her how she is.
Yeah, this makes no sense AGAIN!!!
 
But, that was EPIC!!!!
 
Again after Sharee’s call,
 
Heer : “To n sonz tw, shazia (sharee) c de l’eau, laiss shazia couler-tw to cool tw!!! TO N SONZ TW!!!!!! PA PREN TRAKA!!!!”
Ani : “mw m whatever”
Heer : “NON!! Tw to n ross tw”
Desh : “Mw m n helicopter”
 
Ani and Desh doing whatever-->
Me : “Tention helicopter tap ek ross”Heer :” Weh pwena accident la aC la eiN!!! Mw m n poisson mw ( Okay this line is so awful, it made me nearly cry, yes, poiss is.. well, poiss is poiss.)
Ani : “NOOOOON! To laboue tw!”
 
Bwahaha :P Okay, you do not need to understand all of these, just remember that I was a sonz and they were the people in the river or things or plants or whatever!!!
It was the shittiest of all stories, I know. But that’s what we are.
Shits :)
Shits who’ll make you laugh your ass out.
And they are, well, better than anything.
They are AWESOME!!!!!!!
They are my everything.
They sang for me :(
 
Heer : “Tne sant bar bar yeh din aae?”
Desh : “Non foD exact sa!”
Heer : “Kumen dir sa en hindi --> Unis aur char mehiner”
Haha :)

 
That was a long post, eh?
You must be reading that some five days later, right?
Yeah, I know, my internet thing sucks :)
I am on my nerves.
But I love my friends.
I love Ani.
NO!!! I am not a lesbo, dirty mind!!! We all know there is still him there in that heart of mine.
But yeah, my new heart is empty :)
Heer said I should keep it well, it has magical powers and some day I’ll see the effects of it.
Heer is very nice.
NO, I am not falling for him.
I simply love the beautiful human being he is.
And, I am fighting the urge of sending a text.
I won’t.
I know I won’t.
 
How long will I let people who knows not my real value make me cry? ;
When there are people fighting to wipe my tears and drawing a smile on my lips.
 
“Oh oh woooo oh oh! Give me freedom :)”
 
I am currently so in love with this song.
It reminds me of Pit.
PIT!!!! FIT!!!!! :)
Mkt :)
 
“When I get older :) I will be stronger :) They call me freedom :) Just like a waving flag :)”
 
Awwww <3 I love <3
I want an African toddler.
AWWW! I WANT :O OMG :O
May be I don’t want it any more.
I wonder which day it is.
And I wonder if my live box still sucks.
Well, that was my 19th and four months old birthday.
And, it was the best one ever.
I am sure no one ever had that privilege :)
And I so pity them.
Because they do not have Ani, Heer, Desh & Pit.
Whatever they have, even if it’s a POiss, it can never be what DHAP are for me :)
DHAP :O :) I love them. I just invented this.
Yes, I miss POiss.
Who cares.
If it was like before he would have said “I do…”
But like before is gone.
And, today is much better.
Yes, I am sad.
But, I have the world’s bestest thing : DHAP <3
What do you have? :)
Is it better? :)
No, it ain’t.
And. NO I AM NOT SHARING <3
I am a bitch. Yeah, right.
I am going to bed.
It’s only 21 23 -.-“ sucks. I have no net.
I don’t want to watch football tonight.
I wrote too much.
 
Good Night Beautiful People,
Fa <3
~Call her whatever you want, she still loves the name you gave her~

It's black and it's white ♫

WE used to be (8)

Just like twins,

So in synch (H)

OH!

Some one call a DOCTOR (BOule -.- call Govind!),

Got a case of a love bi-polar (8)

Yeah! I love this song.

And it is so AMAZING how this song can make my mood G-R-E-A-T again!

Love the song.

Love the singer.

Love the lyrics.

The two bitches who begged me to be happy today,

Are still begging me to be happy.

I am very happy.

That was a lie.

(8) We fight, we break up! We kiss, we make up♥ (8)

Okay, i am listening to this song for like the 50th time tonight.

I have no other alternatives.

It is the only thing which makes me feel myself again.

Today was not awesome.

Today was nothing which has to do with WONDERFUL.

Tomorrow shall be, though.

Tomorrow is a new day.

And tomorrow, i shall wake up and live again.

But, don't ever tell me you love me again.

I won't believe you.

Don't ever tell me i mean the world to you.

I won't believe you.

Don't tell me i am important for you and you need me.

I won't believe you.

Don't promise me anything.

I know you won't fulfill it.

It's black and it's white.

Instead,

Believe in me,

And i shall never disappoint you.

Be true to me,

And i shall make you smile.

Be there for me when i need you,

And i shall do the same.

~You made me lose faith in others..

You, the one who once promised to be always there!

You, the one who said you loved me and you'd do so till the end!

You, the one who claimed nothing was more important than my happiness!

You, the one who is not there today and who left behind, broken promises & pieces of hearts..~

---Katy Perry's still singing >_> ---

..I have a lack of inspiration..

..Ani's back from her veg kitchen..

..BOwl's blogging..

..Pit's dead..

~Serious lack of confidence in myself~

I need to be a wonderful thing again.

I need to show to the world, i am still living.

I need to show to you, i am perfect WITHOUT YOU.

I need to become Narcisse again :) And, YOU ARE GOING TO HATE ME :)

AND, i seriously need to tell you "FUCK YOU :)" with the brightest smile ever :)

Cause she's hot, then SHE'S ALWAYS hot,

Fa♥

The Beginning of a New Life..

That's how Ani called TODAY.

Don't ask me why.

I am supposed to be a new me as from today.

Fact is that, today is coming to an end and i am still the old me.

I did not try to be a new person today.

No.

I woke up at 11 21 a.m. and said Good Morning to people who were already heading towards their After Noon.

I was begged by two bitches to be happy.

I tried smiling ---> Don't ask what happened >_>

I laughed instead :) Because it was playing "Sagar kinaré" whatever and i remembered Pit and his imaginary friend Sagar.

OKAY : I AM NO MORE LAUGHING NOW -.-

Good Night people.

Ihateyou.

Iamsofedupofwriting.

Gotohellallofyou.

"Men are awful bullshitters.." ~Top Girls~

"Maybe our girlfriends are our soul mates and guys are just people to have fun with..."

-Sex and the City

Seriously,

I never have fun with guys :O

Lemme actually CHANGE this quote,

"Maybe our girlfriends are our soul mates and guys can go to HELL!!"

Nice one, no?

Okay, this sounds pathetic.

I do not hate guys.

I just decided, they were not worth the love, the tears, the EVERYTHING!!!

Men >_> 

Guys ---> Whatever you call them. They are all the same.

Poor them.

Why are we people hating them so much today?

Hmmm.. I wonder.

Well, that is of NO importance.

Men, no matter how sweet, are MEN.

And, MEN are what i do not need right now.

It is NOT another post against men, as BOule just said it was.

It is another post about how wonderful women are and can be, without the presence of men in their lives.

WOMEN :O

Wonderful creatures indeed.

Don't you MEN agree on this fact?

Seriously, would you be able to live your life without US?

Yeah, i know, YOU CAN NOT :)

In case, you'll all be so very keen on saying it is the same thing for us women, you'll be WRONG!

We can live without you.

It's a fact.

See, like when you piss off us ---> Do you seriously think we are DYING?

We are not :)

We are just realising what big piece of shits you are.

Okay, enough.

..Because women have always been wonderful creatures.

..Because women, alone, can achieve better things than men achieved once upon a time.

Shakespeare said, "Frailty, thy name is woman!"

Well, even so frail, we are still the strongest things out there.

We go through hell, and still stand up on our own feet.

No matter how defeated, we still rise up and SHINE.

To the beautiful and strong women out there, WE ROCK..with or without men..

Womanly Yours,

~Fa~