HO HO HO! :D

December + Rain = <3 b="b">
Happy December World,
And here comes another end,
This year is gone-almost, 
And as usual there are many things we could not do, many things we wish we had not do, and many things we hoped for that never came around,
As saying goes, the sun shall rise again,
Hopefully 2013 will bring back what you lost this year, it will give you what you could not get this year and it will bring many more =)
My usual end-of-year posts look like the above :
Well, this year, I am not really inspired to wish people great things for the New Year or Christmas,
But still, I just watched the latest Parenthood Ep and it made me want Christmas-BADLY >.<

Christmas looks so magic on tv,
I wish I could have this kind of a christmas (:
Anyways,
Christmas is the time of the year where you get to believe in magic,
It is the time where you can believe in your dreams again,
If this year has been hard on you,
Then, for Christmas believe in a better day,
Believe in a better life,
Because every new day, the Sun will rise,
And someday, will be YOURS :)
Don't forget to smile on Christmas,
To believe in the impossible,
Because Christmas is that one day of the year you get to believe in this fat cheeky guy who wears red clothes and has a tad of white beard :)
Believe in miracles and 
above all,
Believe in yourself :)

xoxo
ZOu,
P.S. I know this is a messy post, but i am working on it.

BoohDecember :D

HAPPY DECEMBER PEOPLE! :)

Only 17 posts this year? :O Horrible horrible year it's been i guess,
But December is just another thing,
Just the sight of it made everything better,
I sound like i am in love with December -.-

It's a sunny sunny sunny December people,
Make the most of it and be happy blah blah blah,BS.

Klaroline [Klaus+Caroline] : Awes!

<3 b="b">
Bon aler bye, mne vin extra kaka at writing posts. 

Depressed Much.

November :)

I don't even feel like smiling here; summer is back and so are the most despicable insects ever. November also means a LOT of work : revision and revision again. 
And as far as I am concerned, right now, whether it is November or February, I don't care much. I feel like my Life has come to a full-stop: nothing much is going on there and I don't feel like making anything happen there either. I feel like I am just living for the sake of it. 
My blog manager told me I should start a new Life which is quite impossible,
I feel like everything I have been going through for the past months will follow me till my last breath,
Nothing will ever get better,
Some things can never ever get better even if I try because, well, you can't call back the dead.
So, yeah, there is a lot of things going on in my mind right now,
I am probably depressed or even suffering from some kind of disorders for that matter,
But I can't do much about it,
Because \I don't want to open up to anybody, not even the closest of them people,
Actually, I feel like there is no one close anymore,
I have shut down everyone who once, used to be close to me.
It's like I don't want things to ever get better.

Yes, this is such a negative post.
Bad thing for a Psychologist-in-the-making.

It is probably time I key off,
Too many depressing stuff in this post.
Can't get any proper writing either,
Hopeless I am becoming.

xoxo
ZOu 

Alone Without Loneliness! :D

And...
        
        I should start WRITING AGAIN! Seriously, what the hell is wrong with me. I hate coming on my blog and finding nothing interesting there. Have I turned into a very boring person lately? NO!
Or maybe :S I don't know, I am just very very very busy with 3 assignments, 2 tests, 1 BIG [[REALLY BIG]] Dissertation.  So yeah, this could account for me not writing in ages.

Actually no,
I just can't come up with awesome things or awesome writings since there has not been anything happening around lately,
I have no inspiration left,
I might have used my inspiration completely which could explain why I am writing so awfully nowadays, or not writing at all for that matter.

I just discovered one awesome TV Show [[and here it goes..again!]] : Parenthood.  I think it's one of the most amazing and lovely TV Show ever.  So now, I am just watching this all day instead of revising or working on my asses :)

I took a new initiative,
It's called "Being alone without being lonely" ---> Actually, this comes from [[I forgot his name]].
But yeah, this is quite awesome and true,
I don't find the need to actually talk to people anymore,
People bore me,
And I am so over their crappy attitudes and everything,
I find it much more peaceful to just be on a hello/hi kinda relationship with people,
It is a lot less of DRAMA and EVERY-DAY CRAP :)
My Life is just more stable and serious,
And I don't need to worry about other people's shits anymore since I am not surrounded by anyone but my family.

I might sound selfish, but believe me, this is such a good thing to be from time to time,
Not giving a damn,
Being just YOU, 
Being on your own and not having people dictating your Life,
It's just so amazing and stress-less.

Anyways :)

I can't wait for exams to be over,
December Holidays are going to be Legendary! ♥ 

xoxo
Zou :)

It was probably time to start writing again. I did not write since ages for very obvious and personal reasons but today as I was on my own and reflecting, I realised it was probably high time to get on with my life and everything I left behind.  Sure, it's hard to lose the people you love, it's harder when the cause of the loss is Death.  Everyday you wake up and you feel that person is still there, but as the day goes on you know you cannot hide away from the truth anymore, you cannot pretend that person is still THERE. You have to live with it all your life, so why not start NOW! 

It's very easy to smile again, they said. Well, it's very hard to try. 
Everyday shall now be "Trying to Smile Again Day" and probably in a very soon future smiling will be easy again! :)

Anyways, coming back to my blog : it looks dull. A LOT!
I should do something about it, after I am done with myself though :)
Year 3 is pretty good till now and the Dissertation thing does not seems too much of a horror movie yet,
So, things are turning out pretty well!

Again this new semester seems so different than the rest,
Some people left,
Some people came,
And some people forgot,
But it does not matter anymore,
When you have seen SO much in only two short months, you feel you can stand anything Life throws at you,
You are ready to fight it all and to get out victorious even if it looks scary.

If you are reading this and you do not understand a word of what I am writing,
Don't worry :)
I just needed to write and move on with my messy Life =]

On a brighter note,
I am becoming more and more nerdy this year and I feel great about it :)
I feel like I might even bag that Bloody First Class =D

And on a less brighter note,
I am wearing REAL braces now,
My teeth hurt a lot :) I can still smile without showing em teeth which is a good thing but I can hardly eat anything -.-

On an I-don't-know-what-note,
I am still pretty much single and not ready to mingle =D
I still hate people trying to flirt with me and I still hate guys staring at me :)
But yes, I am still pretty ^^

This post does not have a title yet -.- It's about so much thing I can not decide what to title it.

I will be writing again tomorrow or later today itself :D
I am loving this ♥

Have a great September!

xoxo
ZOu♥

Come Back =]

Hello Readers! :)

It's been ages, I know :)
I have been dealing with really awful life facts,
I went through hell during the last three months,
But I am back,
And I will be writing awesome things VERY SOON!

Keep Reading ♥


xoxo
ZOu =]

Sunny Wintery Sundays =]

There is something about this sunny wintery Sunday which makes thy heart melancholic.

It is the sound of the birds chirping in the afternoon,
The sound of the very few cars passing on the main road,
The sound of the light breeze through the half open window...

It is the anticipation of a sunnier Tomorrow,
The hope that tomorrow will bring about more joy,
It is the beginning of Winter and probably some dark days ahead,
It is a wish that this smile will remain still forever.

There is something about this sunny wintery Sunday,
It makes every single part of your body feel alive and it promises you a better Life!

Happy 1/2 April!
xoxo
ZOu♥

Don't Worry About People!

Somebody just told me,


"Don't worry about people, they will all die one day!"

Very mean quote, but very true.
We spend our lives worrying about what others might think of us,
We spend our lives worrying about how to get over broken relationships,
We spend our lives regretting the wrong choices we made,


And we don't realise this Life is so short,


We spend our lives worrying about important things,
Important things which compared to this Life,
In the end appear very petty,


We spend our lives taking others for granted,
Wondering if something go wrong,
We shall get over it together,


And we don't realise this Life is so short,


We can not predict the next moment,
Sometimes it feels we do not even have the right to dream about a tomorrow,
We can not even hope for the Sun to rise again,
Nothing lasts forever,


This Life is so short,
It can stop now,
You might be smiling at this very moment,
It takes only one word,
It takes only one action,
It takes only one breath for this smile to turn into a tear,

So, 
Live your life to the fullest,
And don't worry about people,
They will all die one day! :)


xoxo
ZOu♥

The Past Belongs to the Past.

Some moments you look back on and feel like it was ages ago,
When in reality it was only yesterday,
Yes, this is the magic of Life,
Everything keeps changing-constantly,
Nothing remains the same,
Not even the most sincere friendships,
Not even the most romantic love stories,


With time, it either mature or it fades away,
And it is a good thing,
Because with every changing moment, every changing person around you,
You become aware of your deepest dreams,
You become aware of your goals,
You become aware of who you are,


No matter how awesome yesterday was,
Today is more important,
Because Today will shape you and make you who you will be tomorrow,
The past should stay where it is,
Waking it up again might cause much damage to your well-settled life :)


So, every morning when you wake up,
Move forward,
Don't look back,
Get over the days which are gone,
Believe in the present day and make the most of it,
No matter how terrible and scary it seems,
Something good will always come out of it :)


Something that will change your tomorrow :)

No, this picture is not related to the post : I am currently having a crush on RK AGAIN. ♥

xoxo
Zou ♥

This is my World, This is my Life :)

I love LIVING in my very own little bubble :)
That does NOT mean that I am ignorant of what goes on around me,
Neither does it mean that I am a selfish little bitch :)

It only means that I live my LIFE the way I feel it should be lived,
I ignore some people for very obvious reasons,
I brag about my own self because I believe sometimes it is important to remind the world that you are not weak/unimportant.
I am not a SAINT, but I am not a hypocrite either,
I am just like everyone else,
Trying to fit in a very complicated world,
Call me what you want,
This will not change me,

I am officially TWENTY ONE :)
And I am a VERY happy woman,
I don't care what the world think,
I don't care if this world want me to change my way of thinking/living,
I don't care if I keep believing in *dumb* fantasies,
I don't care if this world think I am still immature,


I know very well how mature I am and how some of my dreams shall never be fulfilled,
But still,
Unlike some, I choose to keep believing in everything,
Simply because it helps me escape this world,
The power to believe in dreams is not given to everyone,
I have it and I will keep believing until my very last breath,
That does not mean I am not realistic,
It only means I am imaginative enough to colour my life brighter :)


One last thing :
Writing is my passion,
If you have a problem with my writing : Then get over it, because I will write. ALWAYS. 


With that,
Happy 21st Zou♥
I am very much obsessed with my Birthday :)

xoxo

Bits and Pieces of our Real Selves..

201st:


Somebody told me that the people who really care about you do not have priorities,
But as we move along the path of Life,
We realise that even the closest friends of ours have priorities,
They choose other things/people over you,
They forget that from time to time it is important to remind the people around them that they are still there and they still care,
They forget that this world is not only meant to be lived,
It is meant to be enjoyed with the people who make up your life,
They become so materialistic that they forget there is something called Love,
They care so much about their own selves,
They forget this world is full of other people who probably needs them/their words to keep moving along and not give up.


Yes, this world has made people so cruel and selfish that their is practically no love left,
Most of the relationship which exist today does contain a spoon full of hypocrisy and jealousy,
There is barely any bonds left which are entirely honest and sincere.

"Does this darkness have a name?" 
We do not know,
Most of us keep living a more and more fake life everyday,
Pretending to care about people we do not really give a damn about,
Loving the people we want to get rid of,
Talking to the friends we can not stand anymore,
Lying to the persons we are the closest to.

"This cruelty? This hatred? How did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return, but knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed all by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?"

Everyday we lose a bit of our real selves,

Everyday we give up a bit of our true selves,

Everyday we decide to change,

Sometimes for the best,

Sometimes for the worst,

Should we blame this world?
Should we blame these values?

Should we blame others?

Or should we just realise it is us who are responsible for what we become,

Because after all,

Character is Destiny!

xoxo
ZOu♥

Nothing is lost as long as you believe in YOU!

You feel you lost today?
You did not.


You feel you have missed the best opportunity Life gave you?
You did not.


You feel like every part of your body is dead?
It ain't.


You feel like there's no tomorrow for you?
There is.


Believe in yourself again, don't let a piece of paper, some grades throw you down.
You know you deserve better than this,
You know you will go far in Life,
You know it,
You have not realized it yet,


Forget about what people will say,
Forget about what your own people might say,
Forget about what the little voice inside of you is saying :

And just believe in YOU,
Believe in the dreams you saw,
Believe in the dreams you want to fulfill,
You can still fulfill them,
This world is yours,
You have your whole time to make it what you want,

Your life is starting NOW,
Forget about every single "failure",
It is only after failing that you shall succeed better :)


God knows better, He has something better for you in the future :)
Believe in Him :)


And oh btw,
Congratulations :)
♥


xoxo 
ZOu♥

Happy February ♥

Hello World :)

I am in a state of much "high"-ness :)
Happy February :) Basically I LOVE FEBRUARY ♥
No NOT VD, really people -.- MY BIRTHDAY!
My February-posts are always about my birthday and my birthday and ONLY my birthday :)


I can not take the heat anymore,
I wish it would snow on my Birthday,
It will,
Not here though,
My Post-Manager will probably be dancing in snow for my Birthday and I hate him for that [[SHUT UP DAMN!]] -.-


February is always a wonderful time of the year,
Lately I have been missing people,
Missing them BADLY,
But then I came across a post I once wrote about how the past is tempting but it is not always the best path to choose,
And surprisingly, 
I got over this "Missing People" thing quite quickly :)


Every day is a new day,
And trying to get back to square one is often a very bad idea,
It is not always what we need to do, no matter how badly we want it,
This world offers us so many opportunities,
This life gifts us new paths everyday,
Why then should we just go back to where we came from?


With that,
Let's just ALL look forward to MY BIRTHDAY :P
Okay, it was a joke :D

Have a wonderful February amazing people :)
Let go of old dreams and embrace new ones,
Let go of your broken hearts and look for new people to fall for,
Let go of your hatred and look forward to love,
Let go of all your regrets,
And embrace all the things you wished for and MAKE IT HAPPEN!


xoxo
ZOu♥

Live everyday like it was your last :)

Happy End of January Wonderful People :)

I just came across a 13 years-old girl's Facebook status : She is fed with life.
Really?
At 13?
We all have our "fed up" moments, but bitch PLEASE, at 13 you are supposed to be a happy "kid" enjoying every shit your parents provide you and be thankful you are LIVING.
This morning someone very close to me and my family lost her unborn child, 
It is in moments like these, you realise how lucky you are, having a wonderful and healthy life, and a great family and friends around you.


This baby was terribly loved even before it was born,
Unfortunately it could not even be amid us,
Its parents are crying their soul out : they had dreams for their child,
Which can never be fulfilled,


And you, at 13 : you dare say you are FED up with Life -.-
This is really disgusting, 
If I did not know this girl I would probably think she might have troubles,
But she does not,
Her parents strive hard to give her everything she needs,
And the only way she repays their love by being an ungrateful little git :)


People need to go get a life -.- They are simply DISGUSTING.


On a brighter note,
It's nearly February :)
People start buying me gifts :P I love being pampered on my Birthday :D
And start booking yourselves : I will not tolerate any "I am busy" on my Birthday :D "

I will not tolerate anyone POSING me a LAPIN either! xD" [quote from my Blog Manager (A)]

 AAH. Overexcited-ness taking over :D

xoxo

ZOu♥

The Sun Will Rise Soon :)

16 Months Left.

My Diary's Quote of the day : "It is always darkest just before the day dawneth." 


True Story : Just when you feel everything will fall apart, a ray of hope/light just hops in and


 everything is back to normal if not better :)

The real moral behind this quote states that you should never give up and always be patient,


Dawn must not be too far,


The static darkness will soon go away,


Everything will be brighter one day or the other,


You might need to wait for days/years,


But in the end it will be worth the wait,


In the end you will get your part of happiness,


In the end this World will bow to your greatness :)








I know this because everyday I pray for my sun to finally show up :)


I am and has been going through painful moments since ages,


Despite the very wonderful days I spend with great people,


There are still a lot of things lacking,


There is still much to get over,


There is still a long to go till I reach my goal,




And I am waiting patiently for the day to come when I will finally be truly satisfied [[no, not happy. Do not forget, Happiness is a mood :)]].


Till then,
Have a Good Night Pretty Little World ♥


xoxo
ZOu♥

The End of My World 8-)

Dear People,


Apparently I might not be here tomorrow : THIS SHIT is supposed to be falling over the Indian Ocean.


Anyways, if I don't make it : OH WHATEVER :D It's been a great Life ^^

 “People say hell is endless, they say its our worst nightmare, the face of our darkness, but whatever it is, however it is, i say hell is empty and all the devils are here.” ~NathanScott [OTH : S9 E1]

xoxo


ZOu♥

Ily my Junglee Jawani♥

I was wondering where to start :)
And then I just started listening to OUR song :)
And the words started typing themselves :P


I will begin by reminding you AGAIN that THIS was the BEST holidays till date,
It's even better than the days we spent together when you were here permanently :)
You probably can not know how much having you here this year was BLISS for me : I spent one whole semester without any REAL friend, crying every night wondering whether I can even make it to the end of that semester. [Long and Lame Story.]
And then you came here and made everything better :D Just by being here ♥
You gave me not only the best times of my life but also the courage to move forward and to be strong enough to face loneliness :)
You probably never knew but,
More than once, you called me/inboxed me just at the precise moment I was about to give up on everything,
And I don't really have to tell you how your calls/messages help people to get over depression :P
You are my God-Sent Sister ♥


Thank you Sharee,
For bringing back your craziness in my Life and reminding me of how crazy I can be,
How fun Life can be and how guiltless it is to laugh at people :P
You have the gift to make everything easier :D
I love how carefree you are and how you can turn everyone around you just as carefree and cheerful :)
You add colours to people's Life,
You are the melody to the song of Life :D


I love you to bits x
You always make me laugh till I cry :)
There is no doubt we are meant to be : We were born thanks to the very same person (A) [Bon lepep pens cki zot envi :D]
It is probably very hard to have a friend across the Ocean, fighting with her almost every time, deleting her from your facebook and still loving her that much :)


I Know you don't want to go this time,
And I don't want you to go,
But it is necessary for you to go so we can meet again : VERY SOON :D

This time I feel I am going to miss you more than the previous times,
Probably because our bond got stronger,
Like they say, Distance strengthen the relationships,
I am going to miss your random visits, calls, your food, your cakes, your craziness and the spice you used to add to my every day life :D


Have a Safe Flight :)
Hopefully next year we shall take this flight together ♥

Keep CALM and Carry On :P

Summer Holidays are definitely the best ones till date,
I don't know why but my Winter Holidays tend to turn into a very horrible nightmare every year since 2005,
I am therefore NOT looking to more holidays,


Summer '11-Summer '12 were like THE BEST days ever :)
I loved each and every single day of my holidays even if i spent some days sleeping all day/watching movies all day :D
I love how every day/night out was a total success despite some people backing off from our awesome plans -.-/ :D
I love how we went to shopping and bought nothing and instead spent hours trying clothes in stores :D
I love how we spent those rainy days trying to bake cookies which instead turned into muffins :P
I love how one little drive with you, turned out to be the most romantic one ever :D
I love how going camping in the rain was F-U-N :D
I love how we spent hours lying on that pier, listening to amazing songs and smiling at Life :D
I love how we watched three movies in one day and managed to have the biggest time of our lives :D
I love how we went to that horrible Free Fall Thingy and I nearly died :D
I love how we went into a Horror House, shouting at the top of our lungs and came back laughing like idiots :D


Above all, I Love How You A-L-L made 2011 and this special Summer the most memorable holiday EVER :D 
I Love You People So Much ♥


Sharee and Supou I love you M-O-R-E ♥ 




And now, the worse thing ever : Going back to school!
I feel it is going to be a long-very long year, but I Know I'll get over it :) Because I believe in me :D Sometimes, it is important we go through the worst experience alone, because at the end of the day, we shall come out victorious and confident :)
I spent one semester in fear, wondering whether i'll be able to cope alone in a class I hated without my friends and I came out alive at the end of the year,
So, being there for one whole year won't be that bad :)
Besides, February will be here soon and I'll get one very bright month ^^
And for the 6 other months left,
I'll just fake my super fake smile and be happy because I know 2013 will be THE END of this nightmare =D

Wishing you all Good Luck for this New Semester/New Year at School/College :)
Love♥
ZOu x

Hello 2012 :D

Good Morning World :)

Wish you all a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

This is my first 2012 Post :P

Love and Kisses,


ZOu♥